Longer weekend then normal..FINALLY :p

Bapak's coming to fetch me late. Like always.. it's a busy world to live in. Thoughts of going home this weekend in a way excites me. Because I don't need to do much of the work around the house, not as much as I have to do if Bibik isn't home. She's coming back today. :) Finally...
But in a way, I think, the absence of a person taking care of the house, and us, taking care of it ourselves can be really fun. Really binds us together, to tolerate.. :D Yeah, it's a rare occassion.
Anyway, I have high expectations of this weekend..to be relaxing, especially after, having a long, tiring week and three days, not forgetting the three past weekends that is full of ironing, and washing and fast food. :p
Things are suddenly getting crazy. I miss Mr Cranwell's class, and yeah, Ms Christine leaving too, so who is ever going to teach us History? Events come and pass, like pages turned in a book, fast and not even letting me to stop and think. Or to hesitate. The bright side, it's good, the dark side, I'm abandoning some matters I shouldn't.
Sometimes we need a break, but in some cases, you just to go on and on and on, until those stuff bothering just cannot seem to catch up. Today, I saw a character that interests me. Probably the person's concentration in doing something made me stare. Like nothing could be a distraction at all. But that person is often seen alone, but at the same time, is near to the people around that person. I don't know how to explain it. But anyway, screw it, just caught my eye for a mere few minutes, fine..one hour.
I think I'm settling down for some sleep. Today is truly a tiring day..again. :)

kami ghetto ghetto

kami perenang frequent kyuem.frankly nothing much this week.just some ghetto moments with some crazy hooligans every now and then.and my rosetta stones-wrecking life is getting better and better.and so i hope.indeed this is a shocking-jaw opener-tongue rolling week with unbearable news and new lit teacher.i reckon that guys can easily inveigle themselvs into our affection making us easily falling in love in an extremely dishonest way.is that actually normal? love is damn right complicated.and i am avoiding it.shoooooooh!

-qyn

no literature

arinah and qyna were told

"there will be no literature class

for two weeks"

-qyn

evening with sapphire

presenting aak in pink dress

blast from the past.belle kept saying that she's bloody worried 'qyn qyn you have to help me that night' well face painting wasnt that hard.i can totally say you did a great job painting the kids' faces.tho majority of your customers are underaged infants i mean kids i trully think you and christina did a fantastic job.cherios!with your unbelievable sign board saying 'face pain' without the 'ing' on it.yeah face pain sounds better.no really.it was fun.tho i was quite confused with the given theme at first.of retro dances and hairsprays and bee hive hairstyles.who say we cant be ala ala kuno at times?

and we had nothing better to do

and more wiggies

-qyn

since qyn insisted me to write something on evening wit sapphire, let me intrude in this post rather than writing a new one *wink*. i cn see dt qyn hs put up lot of pics we took during d whole event. hmm, as she hs mentiond, i ws incharge of face painting wit my beloved roomate, christina. i totally freakd out bout d painting basically. tell u what, i'm nt dt good in arts. haha. d evening went well. most of them who turnd p at our booth were kids. pheewh. i managed to paint a few n to my own surprise, it wsn't dt bad. proud .d interhouse competition roxx! first up ws hairspray comp.cool.next, retro dance. speechless...haha..fun n entertaining i guess. qyn ws practically enjoying d moment while arine ws busy standing still beside mcsub.hehe. here's a pic of d dncing part which is d only one we could gt for d whole competition.

diamond representatives

all n all, i would say dt d evening ws a blast n indeed a joyful event, eventhough less camwhoring than usual. hope u guys enjyed it too. dts it. enough of rambling.

-love, belle-

Fake :)

Literature is news that stays as news :) Found that in Ms Madeline's class. And as I wrote it in my journal, someone said, "You're just like that girl's mum in A Walk To Remember." Yeah, yeah. Maybe it's really..not the in-thing today for people to do stuff like that. Lately, I've been shutting up a lot, and observing things around me. Honestly? I like to write the stuff I think about in my journal, maybe because I think I'm not ready to show it to the world :) Maybe because if I get involve myself in something a little too much, I might ruin it. Hahah..I know, I know. WEIRD.

I guess I've been keeping myself busy these days. I don't care if I'm tired, cause when I'm tired, I forget about the things that are hurting me, and I can just go to sleep without even thinking. You see, I've learnt something from events happening lately. Allah bestowed upon us what we need, not what we want. And in the end, sometimes maybe I'm hating some of them, but indeed, it helped me a lot, to keep my life ticking.

Sometimes, I do question myself, "Am I fake?" or is it because I just am hesitating to hurt others with the truth about me? At times, maybe I'd rather be alone, because I'm afraid of hurting others, but then when they always make you laugh, and happy, and brightens your day, you just can't stop yourself from loving them.

Maybe if I have a chance to ask God a question..I'd ask this, "Why did He ever create love in the first place?" :)

jobless freaks are belle and qyn

today belle caught a huge worm in her veggie during dinner.i persuaded her to see the food exco.and so we did.our utmost intention: to jalan jalan around the perkampungan to be really really frank.then on our way to the deserted perkampungan we bumped into biha and she said

'weh itu ulat sayur lahh.

namenye sayur

tu

berkhasiat!'

shit.we laughed like crazy baboons.and we stole the dh's spoon fr goodness sake.disgusted by the fact that it wasnt worth the effort, we threw the spoon and went back home.20 minutes wasted just like that.i have test tomorrow.darnnnnn.btw enjoy the weekends without me ppl.yeah and wish me luck

-qyn

hatred.jealousy

a not-so-good combination. i knw

at d moment, supposedly thinking bout university application. i hv to knw where i wnt to go soon. but my mind is nt letting me to do so. well, i hv a good reason for dt:) our seniors r getting their offers, n perhaps in sept or maybe oct, they will fly. i wnt to give my opinion, somehw i disagree with people who choose their firm university based on personal reason. u knw wt i mean rite, u don't select university jz bcz u wanna be with dt girl..or maybe dt guy. it's sad, u r taking ur future lightly n trust me, "opposite sex" is nt worth to be ur no1 reason. i guess i'v said too much.should stop nw.



p/s : hope i will nt be like him!

-lacking of love, belle-

out for ews preparation.

tun seri lanang

anugerah tun seri lanang was not awarded to anyone.not that i am hoping to get one but the school should at least allocate one person to get it.and stupidly they wrote there in shades of green (tiada pencalonan).enough about this heart-aching school matter.if i am to write about this it will particularly be a never-ending story about teachers who couldnt get enough of the schools authority.such honourable woman she is yet she inculcates this unbelievable dictatorship.and i am so glad that my years with her is now officially over.btw gladly speaking i had a brief chat with abang at two am this morning.based on his cheerful manner i sensed ther was somethg awkward.so at last he told me someone special :) visited him in missouri and they went to new york together.leaving me behind here.miserable.i actually made a promise not to say a word to my mom about their so called holiday.yeah i would but 'i phone satu blehhh?' my brother grinned and typed a simple 'no'.fine la siapalah daku ini.today i have no classes in the morning.i went fr breakfast receiving good news indicating a good start of the week 'weh weh you guys today no bio and no maths. pass it on' jumping jumping like monkeys.on top of that no literature class.so this is what they call heaven ay.btw may is coming.i promised bir some prada bags and dolce gabana goodies.yeah like thats gna happen.hope the visa is coming out fine.

-qyn

Past Pieces

I remembered that beautiful night,

When we watched the shining stars dancing,

Celebrating the glow from the moon,

We revealed our past and wondered about what may enter,

Still standing firm in the present,

And ended racing at the highway,

Without hesitation.

She said, "We'll get through this together."

How harshness would change us, I wonder.

And we looked upon the exit,

And smiled knowing one day, we'd get out from the pit.

We made our choices,

Some right or wrong withstanding the curses,

And I wonder how many hearts broke,

How many anger provoked.

And now, I wish I could erase the past,

so that boldness would be my resort at last,

But then how can I ever do it,

when at the end,

The pieces of the past puzzle,

creates this present image

that remains eternal in this page :)

underage still

dear vee.

happy birthday.

hope you have loads

of fun last night.

may all your dreams come true.

-qyn

evening with garnet

garnival.cirque de masquerade.a fantastic one indeed with a haunted house-carnival games and so much more.too much to be listed down.anyway they made me a killer ghost.and so my costume went from ugly to bloody to hideously gruesome.the garnival went well.it was full of energy.vibrant.wild.a blender of fun-laughter and screams.a perfect night for those who hd just finished their trial exams.the haunted house acc to the girls was really scary.was it? a whole lot of thanks to all the commitee and of crs to the hard-working ghosts.you guys did great.cheers!well all the hard work hs been paid off and yes.i am loving garnet

julie and farhan.oggy below

-qyn

p/s: varsh's bday another 15 minutes(:

well, i'm suppose to talk bout garnival...hmm..what should i say??let see...congrats to qyn for d splendid haunted house. yeay! i guess u do look "super cute" wit d killer costume. haha. fits u perfectly though. besides d haunted house, overall it ws an okay evening. me n arine went together while qyna busy haunting people throughout d nite. played a few games. d interhouse competitions were cool- d messy ice cream eating competition, mind boggling rubik's cube- spent 1 whole hour que-ing outside d haunted house, at last i didn't evn enter it as qyna convinced me dt it's nt haunted anymore since d ghosts dh penat sgt. my advise to all d 'hantu's, next time make sure u r fit enough to scare people: ) not much of camwhoring, mybe i'm tired..or maybe there's some othr reasons 4 it. what i cn say, some bad n good things happend to me dt nite. no details bout dt particular matter. lastly, an outstanding ovation to oggy, housecapt of garnet n all commitee members, n of course miss syahrina aka qyna!!

-love, belle-

Eventhough I'm a garnetor, I was busy attending to something else, and most of the time, I did the job no one wanted to do, ferrying stuff from chalet to GH. I think I went back and then about four times, and the best trip was taking a forgotten baby full of blood in the middle of the crowd. You should see people's looks all throughout my journey. :P But hey, at the end, I'm proud of my "little" friend who became "scary" that night. Hahah..:) You were WAY, WAY cool,..(I won't repeat):P. And my "big" friend, with her ultimate "success" *wink... hahah..Belle dh maju :P....But although I spent the Garnival times sitting on a chair, trying to overcome my dizziness and headache that I don't know how it came...there's only one word to describe it..FUN! ^_^

A serpent's egg :p

"A serpent's egg" That's my last words in my Lit essay. And suddenly I thought of something. I'm always afraid of having one near me. That's why I never really go near anyone, cause probabilities of them being a serpent's egg is equally likely to being not. And well, I miss the private cost and benefit, making me far, far different from Bismarck. Hahah..That happens when one day, you're so obsessed about what you learn.
Well, these days had been..well, unpredictable. Every second I try to hide myself, and one day I get a person saying with surprise, "She's actually taking Lit?" in a voice that sounds so degrading me, and another day, I get a person that I suspect does not know my existence actually talking to me. Hey, I don't mind both ways. Cause basically when you see a girl who shuts up and just live her own world, probably you'd get that. Being degraded sometimes, and being talked to, sometimes. Most of the time? I enjoy living with my MP4 and books. And definitely..moving on. It's hard, but I'm on my feet now. And I'll never repeat what I did before. :)

over d moon!

a miserable dy suddenly bcomes d best day evr for me..so far la..hehe.



episode 1 : d miserable part



agn today, didn't c hm during lunch. went out of physics class too early i guess. skip lunch since he wsn't there. found out later thru varsh dt he hd hs lunch around 1.30pm..yes, my assumption ws true. i hv free block, waited at d rc. nope, no sign of hm. went back to chalet, watch bones (finishd d whole season2..yoohoo). forced by christina to go swimming. next, dinner! everyone wsnt ready yet, went for dinner late. quite pissd off but nvr mine la..friends r more important than guys.*wink*.arine said :"it's ok, u'll c hm 4 sure". well me, jz noded.

episode 2 : d best part evr

at L7, helping qyna n d rest with d garnival thingy. then, sumone, urm..act 2 ppl wntd to c qyna at d corridor. since she hs a scandal wit dt particular person, n plus me being soo eager to watch em..so, i decided to follow qyna. walkd out from L7 aftr she left.$H*#.my heart suddenly stopped.arine's assumption is totally true.i saw mcrainy infront of L7!! bak kate qyn, L7 is the coolest chalet there is.well i believe her until tonight..btw qyna is helping me to write this post. she does all the typing as i am currently pissd off.again fr the second time today..*sigh* but we stared at each other.probably my mouth was wide open *i think so* and so my tongue bursted a word of 'hi' and he replied 'uh..ini girls chalet area ekh..?' gosh how can he doesnt know.he hs been living here fr quite a while now.a senior durhh...well i explained to him that the guys' chalet is on the other side and so he said again shyly '...urgh..malunye...'he walked past me and i walked gingerly i mean running like hell gingerly to qyna's chalet..my second home.gasping for air and i cant breathe.i went numb fr a while then qyna came back after her so called 'date' *wink* she told me she met rainy..ohya did i mention earlier that today in mr collin's class we studied about rainy days frm the chapter probability..rainy again.today is indeed my one month birthday anniversary's present.i get to meet him in person and talked to him..finally thats talking ekh qyna?

-love, belle

fcuk

french.united.connection.kingdom(:

i really need to talk to my elder brother.he speaks my mind and i wnder if he knows that i miss him.being the ala ala sulung in the family is harder than i thought.nope never will i hope fr another little siblings.man how frank is that.considering that an elder sister hs to be a role model to th little ones.well m not suitable.he seems to be online tho.yet reaching him seems to be impossible.heard that his kmb comrades are coming over to th states to visit him.how nice.anyhw i had a hard time figuring how to fax the isef bank letter today.i should say it is very very cnfusing now that they alterd the locations of the ss and admins office.the point fives are condcting a video and considering that i might get busy busy busy, the commitee said i can be excluded.now that arine and i are practically free we managd to come up with ths hilarious thg (directd by arine herself).no reply frm the ohh-so-splendid director.well i rather focus more on whats real.lots and lots and lots of thgs to be done.one useless piece of infrmation.i dont spread rumours.to nazi dear.the batch is always praying.hope that you'l get better after the surgery and arine is worried sick about you.btw garnival is tomorrw.i should get started.haunted house is the main attraction and so i hope it will be.i have the props.i have th ppl.uv lights.i have the decos (went deco-hunting with th commitee at hartamas and sg wang).drop dead tiring but fun.i need paint.red paint.red bloody paint.

a blazing grab from sakura night

-qyn

where r u?

mood : nt good rite nw

i'm quite surprise, hw hard it is to even gt to see "a person" everydy in ds not-so-big-plus-secluded college. varsh is happy =). so does christina. i tel u y, they gt to see their sooo- called soulmate..ewww! went for dinner jz nw, but it ws as usual.no mcrainy..hvn't seen him fr 3hrs 20min..aargh, in a horrible situation at d moment. i hav to see hm!!! desperate, yes i am. well hopefully i hv a better luck trow.

i need mcrainy!

-love, belle-

malas malas

and they say time heals all wounds.sounds stupid to me.well it doesnt work.ive been having an uncommon type of depression.since well.since all of the insignificant dejections and unneccessary feuds.maybe its not them.maybe its due to the imbalance chemicals in my brain that leads to absurd depression.snap out of it.sigh.yet i still feel irritable at all times.theres just so much.the teacher needs visa.the mother going abroad.the house event.not to frget the massive homework.the friends.the friends.the friends.ohh how i fail to comprehend them.i cant say no more.i am not accentuating some stoic philosophy acc to arine.no no no.anyhow batchmates dear.do pray fr nazi who will be having a minor surgery tomorrow.

-qyn

hujan lurves umbrella

at d moment, waiting 4 dinner. jz to kill time, qyna said :" y don't you update ur post?". yeah..y not!

since i alreday gt d picture, might as well i talk bout my 18th bday celebration at college. hmm..d date : 31st march (d night before APRIL FOOL!)..nice time u guys! d day started as usual, somehow i can't sense dt evil is approaching. later dt evening, after soo called 'kickboxing' practice..u knw wt i mean shen n christina. we were chilling out at L7, suddenly shocking news cme. shen n christina told us dt qriqie ws their tutor for d practice. d story gt juicier, i found out dt qriqie TOUCHED them, well nt in a gruesome way..he only touch their hands. to make it worse, shen added :"i can even feel his breath..he was so near, he talked while teaching". dt make sense? i don't knw y bt i belived them, n i stil remember hw i regretd nt joining kickboxing after hearing d hot story. out of all my dumbness, i asked christina :"which hand did he touch??"stupid kan..i knw! fine la..aftr dt, as usual, dinner then next stop RC. qyna didn't join us for a suitable reason, i can't recall. around 10pm, when straight to cafe with arine, bought some 'heavy' food.

next : CHALET, where all d gooey-gooey things happend. first, they (qyna, varsh, shen, christina, shasha) threw eggs at me. eww,gross gile. d smell, d texture..eww, disgusting! egg war ended n cme d bday song part *cool*. then, they escorted me to my - lovely-chalet-. where later, i found my bed at d common area. my room ws a total mess. let see : they paste 50 posters of my ugly picture all over d room along with all my *ehem,ehem*, they used thumbtacks to stick em in d wall, my bags were on d floor, my softtoys glued to my desk. all i cn say, they were freaking evil. imagine, i hv to clean my room all over agn since we jz gt back from a long break n worse part , i ws covered wit eggs n i smells badly! finish cleaning, back to L7, where i suppose to watch a video they hv prepared for me. it consist of their meetings for d evil plan, a song dedication -with u by chris brown-*nice video clips guys*, n d last part ws d confession. it turn out to be dt qriqie didn't evn touch both of them since d practice ws cancel. $#*@.. they lied to me!hmm..i'm glad actually, hehe:) d whole bday celebration ws fun thrilling..n ended nicely!

my posters *wink*

....wait, did i sy end. guess wt, d next dy qyna n christina told me dt they left *something*(which is mine obv) at P**, qriqie's chalet to be precise. omg, i believed them n said :" x pe la, biar je kt sne." i admit, it ws pretty embarrassing. kindly, on friday, found out they were lying agn. omg two times in a row..i don't kwn y i trust em soo much, they r my trusted-friends. bt thank god dt thing ws not at hs chalet..pheewh..c, they cn't be dt evil towards me,hehe. revenge is yet to come, 18th april is d day. mommy vee u just wait k:P

p/s : hvn't seen hm since yestrday..huhu:( better luck during dinner maybe*wink*

-love, belle-

tired too

the interview went well.no time allocatd to specifically devote myself to write a miserable post.malas malas.i am doing this out of boredom really.since suddenly the internet connection here in my chalet is running wildly active.let me see.we had ewd.evening with diamond.which was a one night stand fr belle.practically she is on th clouds that night.no need to comment any further you can just see how wide her smile is.evening with diamond pics with some friends

well we are busy preparing fr ewg now.evening with garnet.tired.ther were tests and exams going on during the whole week.the seniors are having their trials.today we happn to have an open day.eventually i ws forged to escort a group of parents and their teenage kids (probably my age) around the college and that includes from the mph to the chalets to the dining hall to the resource centre to the great hall and etc.they claimed that they missd the other group.and so i showed them the college anyway.praising the picturesque views and giving brief intros to the newcomers.all i get in return was 'thanks for showing us around and sorry fr taking up your time' plus whole lot of satiated faces.

evening with diamond is adrian with nets

blame them not

they are

somehow vain

teenagers

who love cameras

-qyn

Tired :(

That's the word to describe my days now. I let everything flow like nothing really mattered. It's like..I don't know, accepting everything the way it is. I don't feel like running after what's so impossible anymore. Cause at the end you'd just get hurt. :) Gosh, I'm acting like a total stoic.

Anyway, Bapak's gonna get a title next week. I'm happy for him..just that sometimes when things keep changing, you might lose some beauty along the way. (I don't know if u understand that) ^_^ But nvr mind. Later. Got Economics to attend to :P

gone

g

o

n

e

for

interview

man i am scared.

-qyn

special thanks to all

sweet love + sweet friendship = sweet life

to my beloved batch.m sure all of you are being infrmd that one of our friend juge is suffering from devastation now.her father who is still suffering from cancer hs bn hospitalised and he is now in a stable cndition.it is somehow th best thing this batch hs ever done fr her based on my observation.kudos to all of you.thank you and may Allah bless all of you in many ways.to the old girls especially those who hd sacrifsd their time.who willingly visitd her family last thursday.a million thanks to you.and not to frget my dads troop of mcobas from melacca thank you again.the batch is perpetually indebtd for th kindness shown.juge atm is waiting fr scholarship and she is applying for a local institution nearby and with her splendid performance in spm i have no doubt she can be a great doctor in the future.best of luck.again thanks thanks and thanks to everyone.it means a lot to her and hopefully your good deeds will be blessed with somethg more meaningful in life.donations and etc can be done by cntacting bir the treasurer or aw or me myself and we will give you th details asap.for th time being lets just pray for the best.and to those who will be intrviewd best of luck and do break as many bones as you can.

gosh.now i am hungry for cupcakes

-qyn

GREAT..

Been there. Done that. Why does it matter so much?

the long and winding road

i need somes p a c e

read an article.after someone persuaded me to do so.that claims indian berries as the next cure for dengue fever.reminds me of mr jc's funniest statement in class.he said animals we choose reflects our personality in a way that it portrays how coward.how brave.how independent you are in life?well take a guess.he wants to be a mosquitoe.ohh nicely done.you are a blood sucker then.enough about that.such heavy rain today.went home with drenched garments-soaking flops.thanks bele fr dropping me.i remmberd bele saying 'qyn i hate rain' yeah rite.liar liar.the assembly ended hence marking the start of our long weekend.the principal made his speech.a brief parley on punctuality again and i reckond he was practically pointing his finger to us the point fives? well he was in my chemistry class today.they made evaluations on mr kpl singh.a new teacher.basically he will be teaching the july intakes.i usually arrve early for chemistry.well usually.except today.only five minutes late.th others dilly dallying normally and they were ten minutes late.he caught my attention when he gave them 'the eye' matilahh kamu semua.the new teacher was scared and it was obv.he repeated 'ideal gas are different and are obtained form these three assumptions so we must use these assumptions' four times in a row without realising it.but we concluded that he was scared of iski since he questioned so much on ideal gases and so so much more.typical iski.a super duper kiasu-doctor in the making.i laughed upon listening him whisper to my chem teacher 'susahh betul nak ajar this class ahh? budak budak pandai' well blame iski.i rmmbrd talking to someone frm th batch after assmbly.i noticd somethg different.somethg that i cant really explain.probably i was too busy that i didnt see it coming.perhaps it is true that we can rely on certain good friends but not from th whole lot.yet again.i respect him since he was once a student leader.and he will always be one i suppose.i learnt much yet i am still cnfused.if i am the cause then i apologise.btw see you on tuesday arine bele.

-qyn

bck to college :)

my current mood : obv HAPPY!

finally today i gt to see my mcrainy aftr..urmm..let see..26 days. omg, it's almost a month. tell u what, i ws damn eager to return to college aftr d long eastr break. set my aim : "i must see him first on monday". unfortunately he ws no where to be seen d entire day. haih, ds college is nt dt big, y is it so hard??but..skip.. 4 dys later, here i am, writing my post telling u guys; he's alive!! hahaha..sick isn't it? well, anyway, to mcrainy..good luck for your coming exams! hope u do well.

-love, belle-

foolish april

tomorrw goin bac.yeahh happy happy.and proceeding some unfinishd business with my best pal fr the upcoming big event.may is going to be ohh so fun.and watching english drama the following day since tkc is handling one.its ridiculously late tho.to belle.update birthday pics yea.i wna show the world how miserable you are that day.of smelly eggs and loud cries and crazy with you videos.i am happy belle for now we are officially equal.whoop whoop.and such shocking incident happnd yesterday.i was dubbd as th new special task for garnet.shockingly they made me introduce myself

'ohh wait hang on there

you guys?

april fool bukan

semalam ke?'

i can see varsh laughing like hell golek golek on her chair.m gna get you varsh.unexpected really.i thought i am over with house matters after graduating high school.well it was nice.the commitee was nice.i am positive we will strive again.woah.no more about that matter.for the time being.preparing fr interviews.so so so unprepared.how is it going to be anyways.some say the questions will be miserably ridiculous.well i guess i have to prepare for that too.wish me luck.

-qyn