happy 19th bday belle. :)
may all your wishes would come true.
even if some may take some time to be true :P right? *wink

thank you!

Hey there arine and belle (:
oh and others who wished

thanks a lot. I had a great time that day. and i'm a whole chunk of 19 years now. wow. haha have a great time studying. I now you can lah. wee!




love,
qyna

ready to let go :-]

no further details .i don't wanna talk about it now. bottom:just bits and parts of one of the poem in sex and the city. love it.

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all .... No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men ....- Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

love,belle

Happy Birthday Qyna!! ^_^

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY QYNA!!! ^_^

may you be blessed with happiness and success. stay you :)

arine

just chill out and have fun okay my dear. happy valentine's day as well.

love you lots, belle

to ray (i hope you're reading this)

dear abg ray I WANT MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!

oh

i love you (:

sundays

it's a sunday. i remembered how i used to hate sundays. ironically, now i love sundays. and i wonder where the period of transition started of. it's been the 2nd year now, and i think im healing. i think im starting to enjoy whats around me, and learn to ignore things that bothers me. i think i am content, but im not hostile to changes. i think i am able to accept some things that i just cant change now. and it doesnt hurt like it used to. i think it doesnt hurt me at all the way it used to. i think when that person says "i deserve better" i think i believe in that person now. and i think i should move on. i think it's not wrong to do something stupid once in a while. i find no sin in getting crazy and laughing a lot now. but i think im not getting rid of the memories. ill just keep it where it can speak to me again in the way only i know. through that notes playing in many different tunes, each telling me my own story. i think im afraid of the path i am going to choose. but i think im gonna be okay. i think i shouldnt let anything ruin me at all. and become complietely invincible. can i? i dont know. but i think im gonna try.

nightie crappie

i tried to sleep. guess i couldnt. maybe because this mind is full of unresolved questions. i dont know. i tried to recall today. but my mp4 irritates me. cant blame it. no radio station could put a song that i really wanted to hear anyway. so i switched to my collection of songs. i stopped at "fall for you". why? i dont know. maybe because of what the song reminds me of. maybe because of this particular sentence. "talk is cheap" maybe. maybe because i just like secondhand serenade's songs. i got a whole lot of their songs in my mp4 anyway. and i like "awake" best. i wonder why i love hearing songs so much. maybe because some lines just connects to me. but lately i think, the songs i hear just speaks for me things i want to express but i never succeed in doing. like "walking disaster" by sum 41 and "hands down" by dashboard confessional. maybe some bits of "thinking of you" by katy perry. and this nasyid song by raihan, "sesungguhnya".
i tried recalling today again. it's like watching some low quality pirated dvds. some parts are slowed down as if i dont want it to end, some parts just pass by as fast as light. its my memory. i guess i put it the way i want it. even if i dont realize it. dinner was fast and slow. slow because all the food i love are laid on the table. why fast? cause while i was eating, i was wondering if the two people in front of me could see through my eyes and tell what im really feeling. it makes me a bad person i think. and i dont want to be bad. but im not perfect too. i get angry too. i have feelings too. and coming back because i have to is very different from if i want to. and when the two people started to find faults in each other, and started finding faults in the other people on the table, it frustrated me in a way. i thought they could read me like a book. but maybe im this book that is full of wordsworth's poetry, especially poems like "nutting" that they dont get me anymore, they just have vague ideas about me.
i tried to shift to another portion of today. a person i thought will never talk to me said hello to me randomly today. and i guess i was too surprised to actually respond appropriately. but since the first time i saw her i think she's unpredictable. yet i admire her for her boldness, to just show herself without worrying of what other people think. thats one thing i can never do. "i know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are" sam montgomery said in "A Cinderella Story". haha. watched it with belle while waiting for bapak to come pick me up today. i remembered saying how the movie is such a fairy tale, it'll never happen in reality. but i wonder why i always watch this movie, the way i keep watching that peter pan movie. i dont know.
christina and i won because our prediction was right over belle's and shen's. i remembered looking at the person speaking and how that person reminds me of another person who likes the song my mp4's playing now, the song "Home" by Daughtry. if i ever have a wish, maybe id wish that i could say three words. im really sorry. haha, whatever. im writing craps.
and as my sleepy head is crawling back in, i should just mention dayang. dayang's finally chose the male cat for her, dewa. haha. she's so fat now, and not exactly a cat you consider polite. but of all, i really feel sorry for comel. he's getting old now. real old. we tried helping him with his ulcer problem, but he's too old to do anything. he's such a brave cat. i dont care if he's smelly now, but he's still the macho-est cat in the world. :D i remembered that rabbit luqman showed me. theyre so fragile and cute. maybe we'd start keeping rabbits one day. :)
and bapak showed me an article about israel today. why theyre way ahead when the ratio of muslims and jews are like 1: 100+ . i wonder what it feels like to be at Gaza this moment. i think theyre really tough. i dont know if id ever survive such circumstances. and bapak talks about studying hard that one day, maybe, just maybe, we could have the power to be able to influence the course of events in the world. its the knowledge, he says. it comes with power. and with power comes responsibility. and we are responsible of each other.
and i think im gonna sleep with sami yusuf's song reminding me of where i belong.
i free u from my night time craps :p

10.5 anniversary

art of candles

belle and arine

adina-varsh-belle

belle shen arine

10.5vers

christina and darsh's back

10.5vers

the perfect couple! hahaha. kidding2 belle..jgn marah :D memain je

the "fall for you" performance

varsh and su chan

the point fivers-10.5 and 11.5

my fave pic. the 100 million dollar smile picture!!

10.5vers

me-belle-shen by the banner amanda did ^_^

yeah.yeah. me..really matching the decorations

shen, amanda, arine. behold the new member of L7

oops. i forgot his name. arine,how could you frgt?his name is syaz!but i know he's really good at playing the keyboard.

10.5 anniversary. one of the craziest night i ever experienced in kyuem. quoting belle, "we were really high" haha. i didnt remember laughing that much for a long time since this anniversary. i like the part where i get to eat a whole lot of lasagna cause the people sitting at my table didnt really eat much :D and belle was extra evil that night. hehe. suke hati je aku kutuk ko kat blog kan belle? :p and yeah we had a great laugh when shen thought that orde kosmos in the invitation card was the theme instead of the venue. and ironically my sweater was all full of stars that night, matching the decoration on the tables and the walls. yeah and belle got an idea of pasting all the decorations all over me. yeah. yeah. i agreed for it in exchange for a LARGE PIZZA :D but i think the 11.5s did a splendid job of organizing the anniversary. it was simple and fun. and there was really good food :) :) and the entertainment was cool too. ^_^ and if it wasnt for amanda, id be going back all the way to the chalet with a big star pasted on my head without me noticing. it was a conspiracy!!! no one said anything..at all!! :p haha. but yeah, it was a great night right? ^_^ cant believe its one year already. and we're reaching the ending..almost. and i guess im saying something i dont think i had in mind one year ago. i think im gonna miss this place, cause its full of all the memories i dont think i wanna forget.

p/s : haha arine.js edit one thing here.sorry for the intrusion.-belle

nine bullets. how many do u shoot?

do you believe that one person can change another person's life..like in a whole lot of ways? i guess i never believed in TRUST. someone used to tell me that if you have nine bullets to shoot, keep one unused cause that might come in handy. yeah i think i have always believed in that. it kinda makes sense. but what if u never thought u can trust beyond that eight bullets, but suddenly someone came around in the most unrealistic way, from somewhere u least expect at all, and u think u cn trust to about eight and a half bullets? haha. right. whatever im crapping. but i guess what im trying to say is that most of the time, u need to keep one extra bullet unused, just to be safe. but i have an addition. it takes a lot to use all nine. almost impossible if its me. but then when u meet certain ppl u can rely on, u just think that maybe, its not about whether ure safe or not anymore, its about the worthiness of taking the risk of using all nine. and what lies ahead may not be another fairy tale where everything ends up right, may be full of mistakes and may hurt, but u dare to risk cause..thats the missing piece of the puzzle. cause i dont know why? and maybe its just not time to think about it just yet. i think im going to try to change my stubborness in some areas of myself this year, and one day, when ive become that person that i think ive always wanted to be, id tell to tht person, tht i owe u cause u made me see, the sunshine behind that dark clouds. :D that u did a lot for making my nine bullets worth ^_^

new bro-in-law, married big sister. what do u need? *wink

places suitable enough to cam-whore all u want :)

some degree of "sisterly" accomplishment..=p i owe tht to u 2 hanis! haha. *wink

friends

a cake. cakes..actually :)

hehe..this one is a special..a guy with five wives. hahah. dh lebih quota tu. =p

the adik2 and parents

the fountain

hantaran ^_^

the venue for the reception

sad faces to let the bride go :(

huge family

beautiful welcoming pathway complete with the red carpet ^_^

huge family..again.

real efficient bunge telur managers ^_^

devoted flower girls who are really excited about their jobs =p

and lastly, the bride and the groom :D (they came to the reception on a golf cart btw ^_^) ,

well then, 27.12.2008, kakak officially became someone's wife. haha. yerp. tht sounds really nice, but strange at the same time.:) and with the VERY big family from all sides and also almost one kampung frm bapak's side came ( cz theyre all family), and also UM staff, tkcians, indiana uni, urmm..kakak's friends and it goes on and on and on, u can imagine how a huge place was needed somehow. so it was a golf club. the wedding reception was nice in a way that, kakak n mahir came in a golf cart (that almost couldnt brake) and then they walked down this pathway with flower girls leading, and her adik2 trailing behind the best man and the bridesmaid, across a fountain and to their pelamin, which is really beautiful. and yeah they get abang making a speech of reminiscence of her childhood days, and bapak + mama too. and yeah, kakak's married on the same day my parents' marriage turns 26 years. ^_^ and i guess everything ended good. i know it did. now its all left to mahir's side. :)
and yeah, how could i ever forget this pic? the last all singles pic with kakak :D

selamat pengantin baru kakak. may you be blessed with happiness and loads of kids =p and also maybe a ps for ur wedding gift, so that we can always come and play whenever we come visit u at ur new home. =p haha. why dont ppl give that for weddings? =p

felt like ure losing yourself? like you dont know yourself anymore sometimes? like u hate what u like, and like what u hate? u become such a disgusting person but people still think ure miss goody two shoes? and u sleep like uve eaten of sleeping pills so that time just pass without u? why does everything seems to be at the edge? like it just needs one thing to push you over and down will you fall. right at the bottom of the valley. sometimes i dont see that light of hope anymore. coz all i see is darkness. and misery. i just want to get away. fast. i quit trying to do everything im supposed to do and make it as if i wanna do all that. i just wanna..let go.

i wonder if u understand

once upon a time, there was this stranger who was lost in the Sahara desert. every second she was careful, cause she was afraid of whatever you always find in deserts that can kill you. like those scary poisonous snakes...or scorpions that can just kill you with one sting. and the fears can never end, because, they are always everywhere. and they dont warn her if they want to attack. and because she doesnt know a thing about deserts, her mind was only full of insecurity. until one day she stumbled into a spider, that was supposed to scare her to the edges. but somehow it didnt. it just minded its own business building its own web. cause she was desperately lonely, somehow she talked the spider, and it became her friend. her confidante. her hope to just move on and find the way out. and this idea started to plant in her mind, that maybe, just maybe, the creatures that are so-called deadly werent that harmful after all. but then the spider is always a mystery to her, because she knows that the spider doesnt look at the world the way she does. unlike her, the spider seems to take life so smoothly and always stiffen up. the spider always knows how to survive. even if the spider is way smaller than her, it is much stronger.

what if one day the stranger felt that there's no way out to her misery, and everything seems to be at the end. and she starts to hate the person she's becoming? and because she doesnt want that spider to see her that way, she feels like leaving it? what if one day her last drop of water dried and she knows she's going to die anyway but then she doesnt want to die in front of the spider? just somewhere else, not in front of it?

so she stood up and took step by step away from the spider. one step, two steps, three...four....five, six steps, seven. eight, nine...ten. and then she suddenly stops. and she wonders if she would hurt the spider just by leaving like that. but the spider can never tell her if she matters. and if she was going to die, the last thing she would want to do is hurt the spider, in ways she can never imagine. so, she turns back and ran back to it. and there it is, just minding its web as usual. and she sat there and talked to it like nothing really happened. like she never intended to leave it. and she wonders if the spider knows. but like always, its a mystery to her. a complete mystery. and the mystery is the reason she left, and the reason she came back.

and she wonders, if she will stay like this forever?

thinking

why do people always try to be beautiful? someone told me cause people are amazed with beauty, and beauty are always admired, it makes you different, makes you seen. and there's a whole lot of ways to be beautiful, maybe the way you look, or the way you write or probably your own original music. and she said to me that im asking the wrong question. she said the right question is, if it is worth all the trouble. is it?
then, why do clowns want to appear stupid, funny or even freaky? cause when they do wear all the paintings on their faces, being stupid is legal. they get away doing stupid stuff.
like the way a girl wears a snow white costume in a Disneyland parade and get to skip around singing her songs, she gets away being snow white, talking to animals. she wont if she isnt dressed that way.
so if a girl wears make up, she gets away with doing something too right? but then what do they get away with?

tell me

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tell me, do you think a person is a mess with all that?

light on-david cook

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn`t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there`s no point in grieving
Doesn`t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know i`m leaving

Try to leave a light on when i`m gone
Something i rely on to get home
One i can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when i`m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it`s late at night you can look inside
You won`t feel so alone

You know we`ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don`t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that i have ever believed in

Sometimes it feels like we`ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brainYou`ll start my heart again
When i come along

life issues ^_^

well, here i am. 2.06 am in the morning writing a post. :D haha. just finished taking some superhero test, and i got some unknown superhero called green lantern. :p unidentified.
today i found an interesting phrase-"kedai emas bergerak". haha. used for ppl who wears bling2 stuff :) man, i like tht term. tatau nape.:p right now, im hearing this song "innocent" by avril. one song tht i never get bored of. but i dont really hear it as often as i used to. i dont know, i guess thts why i keep repeating it since just now. ^_^ ever felt tht things just go right all the time, and u dont want those things to change? like the way u knw, u enjoy doing things u do as a kid, and then u have to grow up, and cannot do that anymore? wish peter pan exists sometimes, but yeah, i know its a fairy tale. :) guess sometimes i just dont wanna leave my shell, cz i just love it so much, even if other ppl dont. but out there there's like a lot of other things ready to be experienced too. and it can be done only without that shell. hehe. id miss things being all simple, but life isnt right? i mean, i find happiness in really simple stuff, like watching the rain, or even playing or running under it. or haha, this may be unbelievable, but making the escalators with sensors move when they stop, at the curve. :D or playing stupid game of darts at luqman's room. or watch abang playing jiwang songs, and hearing luqman change the lyrics at the same time. :p but things cant just stay tht way i guess. ^_^ i mean, i cant deny tht im real happy getting like an original mp4 tht has loads of functions and like i have dreams of my own that are not that simple to make them reality. and to have to think of feelings, other ppl's, my own. its like one thing i can never really understand. heh. ive got loads to learn ahead. but for now..i like everything the way it is :) and probably change..id deal with it when it comes.:D

miss Y.O.U

haha.just a hunch.do i like him?that's the question.do i?

well, this nonsense started today actually. i took a nap and dreamt about someone. someone who'd been gone for a few months now. just a normal dream, nothing fancy, not even close to romantic movies. how i wish it would be. haha. after that not-so-wonderful-adventure but definitely a memorable one, i realised something. one real fact i'd been denying the entire of semester2. i miss this particular person. yes, im admitting to the whole wide world, i miss him a lot. wow! never thought he meant that much to me. i guess he does after all. once i work my a** off to london, maybe i'll visit him at whereheisnow. and as for the big question upthere, i shall get my answer soon but not now. later guys.



love, belle

BNM orientation-Lanai Kijang

BNM scholars with Dato' Zamani. ^_^

fizerk-belle-arine. lanai kijang, dec 2008. cam-whoring n merayau tengah2 malam :D quoting somebody (*wink to belle) but well our attempt to make a nostalgic pic is spoiled by belle. haha. ^_^

BNM orientation..in the middle of the hols. the time pak leh tells us to write why we were there..i wrote, "like i have a choice?" but then, there were many things beyond my expectations that happened. one thing for sure..single bedroom all to yourself? wo. and the FOOD! Its as if they know what my fave food is. and the activities are all like..new. ^_^ so even if i dont seem interested, i did get a lot from the programme. and i wont define "a lot", its very subjective. *wink. but seriously, i did. even if i gave stupid answers whenever i was asked and besides that, i keep my mouth shut. cause i guess inside, my mind was racing and just defining everything from my own angle. but well, in a way, i was inspired.=D but i wont tell u how cz its in a very peculiar way. haha. okay i think i should get some sleep before i get crazy. night :)

when it rains and u cant watch qurban, we shifted towards cineleisure instead ^_^

aqil masuk toilet perempuan =D safety measures *wink

4 girls and 1 guy

before karaoke =P

cheaper by the dozen minus one. but kak mizah tngkp gambar, jdk tinggal 10 inside the pic ^_^

raye haji kt rumah tokwan, usually we'd watch korban tepi masjid, than we'd do crazy stuff. last time was futsal. today was MOVIES ^_^ so knowing how empty cineleisure would be at 11 + + am, we headed there, cz it was raining. =D cheaper by the dozen minus one. =P and then karaoke followed ^_^ and of course, thriller movies at rumah tokwan ^_^ haha. thats the way of raye-ing with cucu tokwan. peace =D

roti bakar telur cheese. sedap gler =D

bought this tshirt with this writing on it today =) found it in FOS, One Utama. but i dunno whts with me and green these days. ^_^ and yeah i tasted this really delicious food today. its called: roti bakar telur cheese =) cn be found only in sri hartamas ^_^

bye2 old furniture..hello IKEA!! ^_^

dream shopping list. sorry ikea for wasting ur paper. ^_^ luqman nye keje =P

candid =P abang nye keje

this is what happens when we shift rooms. throw all the furnitures that we have been using since like...the time i didnt exist yet..and buy new ones ^_^ *wink*

nostalgic =p

cant find me there:p not in the pic. its raye last year which i went back early cz i hv extra classes fr spm ^_^. nice huh?

words.its been a while.

guess it has been a while right? someone used to tell me that if i ask this question "have i changed?" than im being arine. cz i dont wanna change entirely. there's some parts of me that are very stubborn in terms of staying with myself. and theyre not all good. like the fact that i never really keep up to what i say. it rhymes with i cannot be trusted. but theres the good ones too, and that, maybe that id keep it to myself. :) so, like since its been a long time since im filling this up with craps, have to admit, i miss this blog. truth is, seeing how many people reads this blog freaks me out for a sec. it makes me feel a little bit too exposed. thats why, i went away for a break somewhere. i guess. but hey, im back. ^_^
so, like, back to my simple question. have i changed? i dont know either. but things around me do change a lot with the exception of a few. still that same old girl who's a mess, has this talent of dissappointing people, but still looking for some space to learn to let her guard down more frequently and be more open to the world. still wanting to be normal but me, and that is like very hard. still struggling to keep up to identities that are not mine, but yeah, once in a while, break free from it. okay, do i sound like a depressed girl now? cause, honestly i dont intend to make this all-depressing. but i cnt lie to u. im not another sunshine that brightens ppl's day ^_^
hehe. maybe i should shift the subject and not make it me. :) well, there's a tired little brother (who is not that little) --> hey, thats an oxymoron! (i think) lying on my bed, sleeping really soundly, cause his room is dusty, not in order, and his bed is even somewhere else. u knw why? coz kakak's getting married in a few weeks, and yeah, his room and abang's are going to be turned into the new married couple's room, while abang gets the renovated guest room, and luqman takes kakak's room, which is quite near to mine. oh, he just woke up, and went off. =p probably hungry.
and yeah, out of all nights, i dreamt last night of an adventure. its a long time since i get that thrill in my bones when i wake up in the morning. u knw? i dreamt that i got this whole VERY magical diamond in my hands that can change the world. and i had to protect it from, anyone called human. cause in each person, there's this hidden greed, no matter how good they are. but the thing is, im human too, and i have greed too, in me. but the dream didnt really end. so, i have no ending for it. :) glad the imagination is coming back. speaking of dreams, during this bnm orientation in lanai kijang last week, we had to stand up and tell everyone else our dream, what we imagine ourselves to be five years from now. say it in present tense, he says. huhu. that particular session makes me see how unambitious i am :D but to me, thats not bad. some ppl hv big dreams, but some ppl just want everything simple (and thats a big dream too). but yeah, i finally say it out loud of what i really want. :) in five years time, id be seeing most of europe and middle east ! okay, id be satisfied with europe, and one place in the middle east. fine, two. okay, three. but the number three place is so impossible to pass by cz there's wars between jews and muslims there. i know its possible. i think it is. i just need to get a place in a uk university. :) dreams can come true right? if u dream it right.
btw, this is SO amazing! belle-->congrats for the conditional offer of your dream university!!! ^_^ hehe.
okay i shud go. bye2

november girls :)

hello?! wow, this is awkward. forgive me for the long silence. guess i have lost the momentum to write these past couple of weeks. unlike qyna, no, im not that busy. life has been occupied with exams and other what i call as cool "college-stuff". haha. november starts of fun with double birthday bash back-to-back. its arine's and shen's bday! finally they pass d "legal age". phewh. of course, we had 'proper' bday celebrations. with all the gooiey-dirty-disgusting-food-throwing-sessions. not to forget 'lari-lari tgh malam' around seberang ville like a bunch of crazy people. i bet d kpm students think we'r retarded. sorry guys, didnt mean to bother your nappy hour. anyways, guess its not too late for me to wish :

happy belated 18th birthday

arine

&

shenny !

love you both always.

p/s : sorry arine & shen, js managed to buy you guys brownies n doughnut. no real cake. next year d celebration will be in uk. bet it will be fun! n of course two big cakes coming all d way from london..hopefully.

love, belle

iski's monday tuesday.

monday. doodling iski day.

tuesday. iski in shades and scarf ala ala retro day.

i hate college weekends

friday. iski cooks.

saturday. mara banting .sorry hun i suck at taking pictures. geee!

azhar and his "madha"

last wednesday. they were very very frustrated. especially azhar.

alia alia

this is my cousin alia. and she is my official driver. she likes taking me around unlike rihana who doesnt weeee kidding la (: dudududu lalalala sorry i cant help myself, i just had to take a candid of you. i think you are the only driver that the police should saman for eating and drinking water while driving. seriously cousin.

rooooooar

what medicine can do to you. but i was the only one turning into an orang gila. how come farhana seems super normal (:

suhe and byn

dear suhe and byn (: thanks for the day-out (about two weeks ago). sorry for not updating on time.oh ya i rocked my ass off during bowling yaaaaaay!

"eh we're all going to be doctors eh?" cant wait lah

Our New Friend---> DAYANG

presenting to all of u..our new friend..DAYANG. must wonder why we call it dayang? haha. it was named after belle, christina and varsh's hot rock climbing instructor who had a gay name- Dayang. but quoting belle, he can be named anything, he's still hot. so this kitten who came frm nowhere is named after him. :D its so cute itd sleep for hours. although it is always envied by belle + shen, but christina and i and varsh are there to protect it :D.
it would just run around the chalet ^_^ and bump into the glass door and get dizzy for one moment or two. and god knows how loud it can be when it smells the burger we buy at nights. it will make this cute face to make me share mine. but the best thing is how it can make belle and shen scream. :D but yeah, we havent seen her for days. man, i miss dayang.
but u knw the thing when two living organisms have the same name. when belle tells me about the hot-ness of her instructor dayang, id imagine dayang the lil cute kitty. ^_^ hehe. and it goes the other way round. and so here's our Dayang that always brightens our day (but im not sure the same case goes to belle and shen) ^_^

qyna malas tulis

dear guys. sorry for the long silence. busy busy busy! i will update soon i promise. it is as though i have lost my inspiration to write (: maybe its the weather. or the ever-congested mock exams. or the dining food. or too much evening jogs. or the best thing that has ever happened to me lately (: (: (: lalalalala dududududu weeeeeee!

(:

when your interview day become one of the craziest day in your life :)

now yesterday's a great relief. finally, had cambridge interview gone over with. quoting varsh: we dont need to worry anymore about what the interviewer might ask. mine was just yesterday, christina + shen's were one day before me, and varsh was on monday. just got a thinking skills assessment to get over with. haha, cnt believe how fast time can fly..just like that. i cnt believe that i got passed that interview already. but one thing for sure, im glad i tried, at least i got rid of one what ifs in my life. and anyway yesterday at taylors was one of the craziest day in my life. somehow, after my interview, in the middle of a meal in mcd, suddenly my phone beeped. amiey + dare ajak gi subway. hehe :D but yeah, even though they actually got me into buying them subway sandwiches that are damn expensive :p it was worth it. i had a great crazy time, esp when i havent met them for so long. they dont really change, theyre still the same old dare and amiey with the exception that amiey seemed to lose weight. haha. and going around in a suit, and almost jatuh tangge :D was like CRAZY. when we went to mcd again to meet dare's friends, we stumbled upon qillermaz and dyra right at the entrance. nice spot for a reunion huh? :) but yeah i had fun. amiey actually talked me + dare into playing this game of connecting three straws and drinking from four cups of Revive just to get this free Narnia file and CD. in PUBLIC. huhu. but yeah, as predicted dare won. she got a james morrison cd. huhu. i guess time can change a lot of things and can fly so fast, but somehow there are just some things that never change, and they dont change for good. glad i met them. they kinda saved me in a way :) so like i shud mark this day 23rd oct 2008, one of the craziest day in my life, and i spent most of it wearing a suit. :p.

selamat hari raya

nana hates nau's other half and thats why the pictures are super terpesong (:

gaaaaargh! selamat hari raya pervs. i cant kill you guys just yet because its raya.

i have no idea why i am always posing with that cookie

selamat hari raya from us. maaf zahir dan batin.

mara college is a gay school

we are mara college students. and mara college students are all happy people. we are gays to be short. we love each other. we love each other so much that it is hard to be apart from one another.

boys like boys. girls like girls. and one thing for sure humans just loooove elephants. yap. and thats why mara college students are all happy people. and we are definitely gays to be short. hahahahaha

azhar dan safwan super gila

tell me what do you get when you leave your jimbo all alone just for a while. d i s a s t e r




the pictures are mmsed to me by azhar. i thought after raya would be different. since war that you guys want i will give you war. watch your back pervy doctors. aaaargh! aaaargh! aaaargh!

long time huh? :)

days had been busy and hectic. :) right. didnt check this blog for quite sometime already. well, in the midst of this free ielts blog that is VERY rare, and maths P1 AS tomorrow, felt like writing. :D last week was aidilfitri celebration where shen actually wore a baju kurung. but sadly, belle, varsh n christina balik, jadik im the only one privileged to see shen sopan dlm baju kurung. :D hehe.

but yeah, glad aidilfitri celeb was a success, and the hall looked beautiful tht night. i am so gonna paste that pic of ketupat i painted when i go back home. ^_^ huhu. and glad i get to know a whole lot of ppl during the preparation process, mostly the juniors of course (which is act our age, and weirdly they gave me this surprised look when i said that we are peers :p) but now, the end of that marks the exam weeks that are gonna occupy the four weeks of the six weeks left in kyuem for this semester. my schedule would be one at a time, not packed, but ill end the exams latest, cause im doing all my AS exams, but yeah, mostly ppl will end up their exams early. waaa~ 

and the whole cambridge thing and uni things are at high time now. shen's got a conditional offer already..cn u believe tht?? terer gler. n yeah, cambridge gave out their interview dates already. economics' mock interview was yesterday btw. met this european guy that asked me to describe the global financial crisis in three SHORT sentence. hehe. traded that with an analogy. :D but the interview was way better than dr horsefall's. he made me feel stupid in a polite way, but the european guy yesterday showed me the areas that i screwed up and top-ups my interest for economics. ^_^ he said that i have a great sensitivity to my surroundings which made me thought of how ppl said that im not exactly an alert person :) haha. but id try being an economic geek until my interview :) and just give it the best, i guess. im not really sure of going to cambridge, but id certainly want to learn frm ppl like tht european guy yesterday. seriously. he makes me want more n more of tht knowledge. thts why my interview yesterday kinda extended quite late. okay..gotta study. BYE! 

p/s qyna im not exactly dumping this blog :) this one will always be my public blog, if id ever do another one, itd be private :D

jhar dan si sunway

pagi pagi jhar dah kacau

so we went to sunway the first thing in the morning. haha but it was fun lah.we went all around sunway to find the perfect present for aussie. yeah and he bought her some ------ which is super cool ok. seriously jhar its beautiful and she will scream. jhar you should thank me a thousand times and mintak ampun to jimbo a thousand times because saya pilih that thing for you. dududududududu. from now on jimbo will be treated fairly. maybe i should make a cover of mariah carey's album called the "emancipation of jimbo". hahahaha. ok thats stupid.

owh look at it sleep. guinea babis are cute alalalalala

and this evil guy is trying to eat them.

the world is full of evil people like him. and half of them are medicine 43 guys (:

ali kami is not hot

he is just super hot

a good friend of mine suggested kami the movie. not that bad. it was ok though at first. i was being informed about the existence of underground indie bands since nana is a so-so fan of them. but gangsterism and drug fashioning activities? nope never thought that such activities are becoming an epidemic among the little ones nowadays i mean the teenagers lah.that includes kami kami ini lah. it was worthwhile. belle and bir couldnt stop digressing and drooling after watching ali. i did not say he is hot. you guys did. he is skinny. eh eh no. he is super aneroxic that there is no discernible difference between him and a tiang lampu lebuhraya. tralalalalala.

dafi is gay

i am sorry but i just dont like him.
i drove my maid to the nearest supermarket to buy some vege. went in and dafi was entertaining the crowd with some antique ala ala retro raya songs

maid: eh adik itu yang keluar di dalam tv itu yeaaaaaa?

me: ah? oh ye kot

maid: pergi! pergi! ambilkan gambarnyaaa si

me: hah? tak nak la malas

maid: itu dafi itu kan. ah mengapa si kamu tidak mahu. dia kan itu top penyanyinya (blablablabla)

me: die gay la kak

maid: gay itu apa si?
me: urgh sayur dah beli blom? gi la beli mama marah nanti

maid: oh baik baik

i dont see snaping pictures of dafi as something desirable. but when my maid starts to ramble aimlessly i just have to do something to make her happy. and of course to make her shut up. hahahahahahaha. since i am a kind-hearted person who is very much courageous to push around the stupid paparazzi, i went to the front row and took his pictures. snap snap snap snap! yeah thats the spirit. nak amek gamba gi depan la ape class amek belakang belakang. haha. my maid was screaming when she knew about my courageous attempt. yeah youre welcome.

dont leave us arine

arine

this blog is to be maintained until god knows when. and you just dump us like that? tell that guy to send you more mails lah janganlah kacau kami. alalalalala arine i am practically asking you to stay. dont go. i will definitely go to kyuem and drown you in the pool if you do. gaaaaargh!

hari raya

i didnt enjoy my raya that much.

abang was not around.

"my dear kyuem"

boohoo! im back at cllg. yeay!

first day of classes aftr two weeks break wasnt as bad as i expected. i managed to complete my physics and econs homework before 7am this morning. talking bout last minute. pardon me but i am like this. haha. slept for one hour, and wakey wakey for dr foord's class. physics. aiyo! waiting for block 6, nothing happened. enough said. mr jamal's class today..nothing to do also. haih. the best part, after class, walked with biha to rc. guess what?? bumped into few of my bodyguards. new haircut huh mr ray? nice. army style. then, at rc, meet up with arine. saw mr m! new hairstyle gak! smart. but gay-ish .. i like it.. like a lot! haha .*wink* whats up wiht ppl with new hair-do. then,out from rc, passed by my-used-to-be-bodyguard. same as usual. the most important thing, whaimy. haven't seen him yet bcz skipped lunch just now. i wonder what he'll look like now.hmm?? this week, i'll be busy with maths stuff and ucas : ( thank god i have arine who can help me with this ucas-leceh-thingy.*wink* thats it for now.ciao!

p/s : story bout raya..i'll update later ;p

love, belle

ttdi vs sabak bernam: city vs kampung ^_^

raye kat kampung

VS

raye kat rumah tokwan

the naims

from sabak bernam to ttdi--> raye's the time u get together with the BIG family. every year it will always be two very different types of raye. raye with embah, kat kampung with lemang, sambal taun, rendang, gi beraye satu kampung VS raye with tokwan, kat kl which is near o.u, with pizza, burger king, kfc, gi tgk movies together and sambung tgk rented dvds at tokwan's. great difference huh? :)
but one thing that is not different, its FUN :) haha. there's loads of changes but theyre all for the better. :D

qyna hates shopping raya.

saya sayang budak ini. lalalalala (:

and yeah pizza hut sucks. dont eat pizza for buka puasa

nana oh nana

ini nana.

sedang bermain main dengan

some barang they wna sell for some raya sale.

you are one hot babe nana!

wooooohooooooo! peeeewit peeewit

p/s i stopped taking pictures after the principal and some visitors mane ntah came by. haha. they were astonished but that didnt stop nana from posing even more. she's one jumpy-care free human being i know. sayang lah kamu nana.

stopstopstop suffering jimbo

i apologise for not updating.but i promise the two rascals jhar and safwan that i will make a post about another jimbo's sickening parody and life in mara college seremban after undergoing severe-dire consequences ie jimbo was taken by them and being tossed into an unused aquarium in the chemistry lab. hahahahahahahaha. funny la tu. so not okay! this is just the beginning. jimbo will have his revenge soon. tralalalalala. allow me to say that dictatorship is a subversion of the rights of the people. jhar and safwan are two goo-goo headed porno-confused soon-to-be doctors cum dictators.yes they are dictators i tell you. dictators with a capital D. but without them my class would be a hell-like claustrophobic sangkar. haha. well you dont find me showering free compliments like this. ewww fine tarik balik what i said (:

"who lives in an aquarium in lab chemistryyyyyy

JIMBO QYNAAA !

(lagu tema spongebob)"

(this sing-a-long crap was deliberately done by them)

one advice. grow up dudes. hahahaha

dont be fooled by their innocent looks people (:

p/s: if you reckon, jhar has been standing like that for half an hour. haha. ask him why. weee

poor you honey. suddenly i feel like changing you. a babi would be a good substitution. they wont dare to kacau then. haha (:

i dont know what you're talking about sayang

dearest belle

hahahahahahahaha.

why so serious honey?

i didnt do anything.

i think (:

hey cheer up.

you know i love you too.

damn much.

maaf zahir dan batin.

hahahahahahahahaha.

cant wait to hang out together with mrD.

weeeeeeeeeeeee!

to my dearest qyna : )

hey miss qyn..

you know i love you rite??

but seriously

im soo gonna kill you now man

not joking dude

WANTED!badly

nur syahrina hafiza ahmad salim

p/s : love you. always hv n always will :)

love, belle

bye-bye

gotta bend to be the same height as Tokwan :)

mama-me-auntie-kakqilah-uncle

who's the one really going huh? :D

cherishing the last momentshehe..im WAY taller :D

feels weird now. but it's for the good huh? after all the fuss ppl did to her, i think im glad everything went on well. guess wont be seeing her for a long time. im tidying up the room for starts. :)it's gonna be okay ^_^