i am the wonderwall walrus who bubbles champagne supernova

''house: see that, they all assume i'm a patient because of the cane.

wilson: then why don't you put on a white coat like the rest of us?
house: i don't want them to think i'm a doctor.''

dear

dont actually know what to write.better yet to update you guys.life's been great.yes you can definitely repeat that.life's been great.ok i am being sarcastic.nothing is achievable without sacrifices.the government has plans for me. haha.i feel stupid.shitty all at once.starring at these four walls pretending they will fall on me any minute from now.lets see the things ive been doing for the last four days.house.munching heavily on harrots yang lemaknya hanya boleh dihapuskan dengan lapan pusingan padang (thats what the girls here said) dont give a damn.induction and college touring and star gazing and gossip mongering and life depressing phone calls beeping.i think it is true.they are messing up with my brain.go go go lah find another brain to mess up with.man am i crazy.glad the ppl here still thinks i am healthily sane.anyhow enough about me i hope youre having fun during this merry holidays.arine seems happy-jolly-merry merry agogo kind of euphoria.mc sub proposed uu? oh. i forgot your life's better than mine (: to belle who deliberately call herself mrs whaim for no specific reason, i assure you that when my job which is to collect as much useless data about him is over, you will find yourself being stupidly in love with another probable gay guy. my fact is correct hun.i was never wrong.you really wna know him? he is gay.big huge fullstop.

Family-ish weekend

Balqis

The Friday night starts with a goodbye party for Dek Yah...waa...i'll miss u. The 1990s trio will be incomplete for years to come. But like paklang said, we can always schedule a holiday at Bandung..haha..like we have the money. :) I guess really, we are all going one by one, starting a journey of our own.
pause* Luqman comes in and show off his rm 500. cehh...x aci tul. nk keje ngn tokwan gak :P hahah.
me: (takes the money and count the notes) Luqman salah kire laa..ade 9 je..mane ade 10 helai. (with one in my pocket)...
Luqman: curik!
:P he goes away with his money happily. man, i'm so bad at doing this. down :(

replacing Bapak in his boss' daughter's wedding. we actually have our seats. usually in stuff like this, we get free seating tables way at the back. Glanced at the name beside my seat. Gosh, a Japanese? Right...suddenly a couple of a Japanese man and an American woman came. "we are currently teaching.." I go..right, so I talked craps with them...and after some time another man came, "hey, we used to work together at the UN remember?" I'm like...right...........
eating time: eat like a proper young lady, mama whispered. use that cutleries. yeah. i looked at everyone around me, they actually used a fork, a spoon and a knife. I'm like, how do u enjoy your food with so many cutleries?? I ignored the knife, took the other two and ate my way. hehe.
desert: ice cream!! I dunno if the happiness was so clearly expressed when the other UN guy remarked, " u sure must enjoy ice cream" I smiled. right..
but i hv to admit, it was one experience. but weird for me, i talk a lot with the strangers i first met at the table, when Mama's not there. When she's there, I simply shut up and hear them talk. And why..I don't know. huhu.. but it was fun, long time since we had quality time together. hehe..

ultimate high five with the most attention seeker cat in the world.
watched WANTED with kakak and kakqilah.Moment of History: The first time i ever ate at Friday's. finally i got myself a cheap watch at the flee market after weeks without a watch. but hey, i think i'm starting to enjoy life without a watch. but i hv to hv one nway.
then, we went and had a late lunch with Tokwan and mak imah and mak su. Bet everyone is envying Tokwan, being a man with five young ladies as company..hehe. we cheered tokwan up, and i influenced him in ordering a milkshake and a cake. but mak imah ordered a sugar free one. fine.. we chatted about everything, and laughed at the endless jokes. Fun. don't underestimate the fun of spending time with ur grandpa. it can be really, really fun, frm all the embarassing stories u get about ur mum. Huhu. It's more of sweet rather than embarassing actually.

And Today, bapak came home, saying he's going to US next week. okay..fine, but he didn't bring university tshirts this time. This time its KLIA chocolates. Hehe.
And yeah, my family-ish weekend is ending in a few hrs. :)

*****

I miss him badly. Yeah I do. Everytime he's gone. He's miles away with limited connection. I wonder why I miss him so badly sometimes. I mean, we barely talk like we used to. I don't think he even knows my favourite colour. But I don't know if this is coincidence, but he makes me laugh the time I need it most. I never really told him how much he mean to me. I guess sometimes, the things you really mean, don't go easily through your words, as fast as things you don't mean that much. You see it's weird that I can write a whole essay about him, when I can't even say how much I love him everyday. Or tell him how no matter how angry I seem to be, I'd always love him. I guess I just like the feeling of knowing that he's there. Like the fact that, no matter how weird I turn out to be, he's there. Or no matter how insignificant the things I say that he's there to hear. I guess when you say something really intelligent, lots of heads will turn and hear you, but when you say something stupid, not everyone hears, in fact, only few listen, but then you know they're the one you should treasure. Yeah, funny you're my hero, but then you'd always try to make a hero out of me..and I wonder if it works. I hope one day you'd succeed :P heheh. I didn't even ask when he's coming back. But I know what he's going to buy for me when he does. KLIA's chocolates and university tshirts. Hope that doesn't run in the blood. ^_^

To Qyn :(

we're gonna MISS you!
best of luck in KMS..sorry I was a bit speechless when u called.

-arine-

p.s: update us k?

Energy?

Everyone's basically talking about this issue. Tokwan talks about it. Bapak talks about it. Pak Lang talks about it. Last night he debated with me about why 1 litre of oil is cheaper than 1 litre of starbucks. Bapak's conclusion that shut up both of us: U're comparing a car and a bicycle!
Moral of the story: Never challenge a Physics professor.
The power and glory--->Now it all lies in who is capable of producing an alternative for renewable energy.

"There are lots of terawatts to play for and lots of money to be made. And if the planet happens to be saved on the way, that is all to the good."
-The Economist-

Today's front page of The Star makes me think. Is a Serban actually capable of replacing the role of a helmet? Or is it because it's common sense that people don't really think about it? Right..haha.. Adzreen used to say that the one thing I'm lack of...COMMON SENSE! True, true. I agree. Anyway, as renovations continue to occur downstairs, I'm stuck in my room again, now devoted to Maths. But then I guess my interest went to the articles in the internet since morning. So untouched homework remains untouched.
I went to Tokwan's house last night. And he was reading this new book of his. "Kejadian di Akhir Zaman" and one of the hadith says about time moving faster. The interpretation in the book is that towards the last days, people will feel that time is moving faster and faster. Probably because people are busier with all the matters to attend to. And the book mentioned something about the berkah of time itself. But truly, I do feel that time passes faster than it used to.
Hey..I'm in the educational mood today. Wo...haha..but I have doubts if it would last long.

a day from the past *wink*

scene 1
yesterday i went out with few of my close-buddies back then in high school. i had lunch with shazana and supposedly zawani, but she can't make it ( transportation prob-never mind..). we chatted for the whole two hours in pizza hut. loads of catching up to do,huh? yup! miss our fun-times in form1..haih, with f4 n everything. so immature and childish. haha.

scene2

later, around 3pm...ned took me with her car (waa,she can drive..me?nope;p). for the first time after 2 years, all five of us gt to gather agn. speechless. me-ned-miae-asma'-mirul . we hng out at secret recipe. as usual, talk and talk and talk..non-stop like no one ws around. haha . and yes for the zillion times ned-asma'-miae-mirul..i'm single. always hv and always will. the funny part ws : scene 16; the advice?....."you should find a guy, make him as your boyfriend, play around for awhile, then dump him..js to gain experience"....yeah rite, asma'.btw thx for the advice guys but i don't think i need one at the moment. since they already hv boy/girl-friends, left me alone - the inexperience one. wth . said goodbye to mirul, later us? off to uia,pj with the girls. cn you imagine all four of us in one car and the driver ws ned. our very first small road trip. hehe:) . we gt lost on the way there. it took us almost an hour to reach uia, and i must say, it ws worth it. ned gt to see her beloved bf, while asma' n miae gt to meet their old friends, and i ..urm,shared their joy( pathetic..i know!) well at least i gt the whole view of uia. on the way back, traffic ws a bit slow but this time, lost agn? naah..we managed to reach asma's house in puncak perdana safely. by 8-ish pm, gt home exhausted. haih,what a day.

with asma'

me-asma'-ned-miae

i had soo much fun. thx you guys! wish you guys all the best in which evr uitm you'r goin k. i'll surely miss all of you.

p/s : qyn, nk tgk made of honour!

-love, belle-

Barney and Friends!!

Finished my Literature essay! Finally! Thanks to the noisy, dusty renovations downstairs, I have no choice but to shut myself in my room for one whole day. With the wireless damaged (again, because of lightning) the only thing I could do was...homework. Thank God, now those noise has end and I can finally come downstairs to watch TV. Hehe..I decide to play a game with myself...I'd watch the first thing on TV and guess what it is? BARNEY and FRIENDS!!! Gosh, they're singing that song..I love u..u love me..yadda2..haha
I'm 18..but why am I still enjoying this? Haha:) Okay it's Maghrib!! Later..

p.s: Barney rocks!! :P

stop bothering me i am gay.

happybirthdaychristinagladyouhadfunsayanghopeyoulikethepresentprefecteveningwiththeultimatesixandahillariousonetooofgetsmartandlaughingourpantsofftillmystomachhurtsanddillydallyinginmng

i will be away for a while now.

so guys keep on updating me

and have a nice holiday ppl(:

to bir and anep m really sorry.

we'll go bowling some other

time eh.will make it up to uu

guys.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA

eventhough things are not as how it used to be, but one matter will never change, we love you more than you know.

" I just like having you in my life..."

Made of Honour is one romantic comedy that is SO sweet. Haha..watched it with Hanis yesterday..it's one of our rare day outs together..just the two of us. Funny, when we were little, we used to envy our older cousins for the freedom to go anywhere, to be independent. And now, we'd smile thinking..haha..we got the freedom too now. But the dark side of it, our younger cousins would dig our purse to see who's got the most money. To them ATM cards is the "symbol of wealth"..funny I got two, but then I bet the sum of my money wouldn't be as much as they thought..or maybe, because the fact that living in Lembah Beringin is just so...less costly with less temptations.

While writing this, my eyes had been wandering around my room and I realized how much red roses are there in my room. But they're either dead or plastic...:) I used to like real red roses, and the first one I ever got was just the way I like it..just one red rose without any decoration, just the red rose with a red note..during english carnival. It's still with me now, then the second one, is actually plastic, a bouquet with a bear graduating..haha..those were the one I got during graduation night last year (still with me too) and the recent one is actually used to tie my hair..but eventually the rose fell off, (i'm so bad at taking care of things) but then cause I like it so much, it's still on that rack there, it's plastic btw. I used to love real flowers, now I like the plastic ones. Haha..next, what else in me would change? I don't know. Haha..we'll see.

Well, as I continue to write craps, I would like to congratulate anyone who read up until here, cause you can still stand me crapping. Heheh...

" Oscar's basic formula for satire is his character's assumption of a code of behaviour that represents the reality that Victorians ignore.."

The Importance Of Being Earnest is so full of hyporicsy, and Wilde must be very frank to point it out. Yeah, maybe so, maybe not. Well I bet no matter how people deny it, there must always be part of Wilde's truth in everyone. Kakqilah's not home, she went to BTN..and Luqman got bitten by a wasp today. My bibik said he got bitten by a "lebuan" and me, still in the midst of dreams goes "Amende la tu?" inside, but outside I just nodded. I figured out that she's not sure if it's "lebah" or "tebuan" so she simply combines the word. I don't know if he still wants pizza today, he's been saying that since Sunday. I guess I've been maximising my craps today. Till then.

late edition : ~fun-ness week~

supposedly, i hv to write this yesterday..but due to a certain degree of unbearable tired-ness, plus absolute blank-ness and uncontrollable sad-ness, sleep is the best thing i can think of rather than writing, or i mean typing. i slept for 12 freaking hours last night (cant believe it myself either). haha . too tired i guess. aargh, i'm using that word again. -negative vibes..~shooh~..- well, lets get down to the main thing...here are some of the events before we left the college, marked the end of our very 1st semester in kyuem.

cafe night out

monday nite,9.15, cafe

the western food ws acceptably good, along with the "wild" performances by a number of our-very-own-kyuem-bands. they weren't that bad at all, we missed few of the performances as we came late. overall, it ws a great nite. jalan2 at the field while listening to arine's favourite song 'dengar bisikku'..what a great way to end that lovely nite.haha.

sapphire farewell party..for the seniors

tuesday nite, 8.30-ish pm, foyer/jap garden.

only me and christina were involved with the party. the others, i mean, qyna-arine-shen-varsh are garnetors, so they stayed at L7 the whole night..to be precise, waiting for us to come back. haha. a very 'warm' party, additional 'fun' to my statement js now.hehe. ate loads of food, sang a song called "here in my -house" (sapphire version), watch a video presentation...and..urm, not to forget, cam whoring as well.

~my 'incomplete' pet family(diana and sapna were not there)~

the video presentation

with sha, nab, shasha (and topan interrupting at the back. haha)

christina as usual refused to take pictures with me.grr.haha...maybe next time huh, christina?

let move on to..end of semester dinner.

friday nite, 8.15pm, dining hall - me, qyna and chistina went a bit late..hehe..15 minutes late, sorry, its my fault. i thought it wasn't an official ceremony. sorry again, qyna, christina! performances by each houses were awesome..*cool-ness* but in the middle of the whole thing, qyna had to go back. mood changed~sad~.."tear dropping"quote ms syahrina..haha..the last part, as usual ws the 'fun-thing-to-do-evr'..cam whoring!took pictures with our seniors^yeay^

well apparently on saturday, there ws awards day going on...sort of graduation thingy. later that evening, after parents day, went back home. *tired* not that t-word again!~hehe~guess thats all.toddles.

p/s: qyn, arine..hws my report? ;p

-love,belle-

From Incredible Hulk to Birthdays : )

Incredible Hulk was lost, alone and on the run. When he thought he lost everything, he finally figured out that actually, not everyone left. People always leave, but doesn't mean every single one would. And sometimes, even if it's just one out of a hundred, it does matter. "Nothing I have is truly mine"..that's the phrase in this song I'm hearing that keeps repeating.
Yeah....today was a marathon of movies. spent my whole day at mid valley. then ended up at a beautiful restaurant during dinner. We had this band to sing a birthday song for Mama. but it turned out he sang about 3 other songs for us. Then Bapak told me to give them a tip..and man it was a lot of money! (Haha..maybe I should do those stuff as part time jobs one day) Except maybe all the glasses will crack and the rain will fall.
But today isn't another "boredly normal" (man, I really like that word) day. Cause I learnt one lesson. It's not happiness that chooses you, it's you who choose to be happy. :)
p.s: Happy Birthday Christina ^_^

lari lelaki gemuk lari

runfatboyrun

a guy left his woman at the alter

while she was heavily pregnant.

and he ran away.eventually five

years later he explained to her,

''spoiling you a day was better than ruining your life''

haha.guys are super-bitches.thanks nazu for the great gay movie.you made me laugh blood while watching it.and thanks for the gelombang nestapaku harap bersinar melody too.heart you hun.what a nice way to end a perfect semester.after the short shocking period of tear dropping with the girls (christina started first) and then the sudden kamal appearance ''ape korang ni emo-emo plak isk isk isk isk'' not funny dude you boys just dont feel anything.but you guys made me smile all the way back home.i will try my best ok lalings.i remembered my dad asking ''why are they so sad?'' ''oh. they are just being my friends.and friends support each others butts.big or small.tonggek or gempal.leper or not.i know you dont understand.its a girl thang'' grins.anyway ehem belle anda tidak menangiskah atas pemergian i mean perpisahan seorang senior yang oh dicintai? haha.kill me dude.i know your soul is sliding away but dont look back in anger.i hear you say(:dont mind me i am busy doing math or house or south parking or nothing at all.suddenly i feel like bowling.hmm or not.

I woke up..

and got a call.."I'm starting class today, need blessings from my teacher.." Haha..Suhe'..Suhe'....
Guess we all are starting to move on at our own pace are we? Yeah. We should. But why do I have a feeling that I won't like today? Cause I'm wearing all black...fine..with not-so-obvious pink stripes. whatever..

fake tales of san francisco (beringin version)

saya

saya

dah siapkan

board garnet!

that was superbly fast.well i dont really have better things to do for the time being.minus south park back to back episodes.one friday evening i was bored and it was hot as malaysia is freakingly hot at the moment (no seriously no kidding.so so abang you better stay in us with beyh and dont come back now) and i thought i should help them with our house board.i come across the board every single day.i imagine it whispering to me solemnly ''come and decorate me you useless qyna!'' alright.i am coming honey wait for me.so i went and see jojo - discuss sketch - went home bodek bodek mama for money - buy barang macam orang gila at bookshop paling miserable di shah alam - cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut ouch i ''ter''cut my fingers cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut - belle fetch me back to college - pasang board with belle at approximately eleven pm - paste paste paste paste paste paste paste paste - joget joget jason mraz - gelak gelak sampai seniors pandang dgn bengangnya - board finish - but i am not at all satiated.it looks kindy.i guess.i guess i will never be satisfied with myself.well thats me.say what you like.i am one crazy gorilla named butter.

please leave

before the

lights

come on

because

i hate to

see you go.

but i am sure you dont know that.

p/s : thanks to belle and christina for dragging me out of the chalet to attend cafe night out.saya sangat suka band itu main.saya suke lagu itu (:

Charity Visit

KL.......never thought there'd be such a place....like Pantai Dalam :) We reached the setinggan area early in the morning and we were amazed by the number of people waiting..300+ (freaked me out) and deep inside I went, "How am I ever gonna motivate some kids?" Chill2...:)

suddenly a kid came to me and kissed my hand ^_^then another, then another..man, they're so cute. Haha...kids just know how to charm you..

when i finally got my group...they all looked at me and kak ajah blankly. Great..how am ever going to motivate them? Hurm.....but magically, i find myself talking..haha..wow..am I actually talking a lot?

eventually it was a memorable event..got a place there in my heart ^_^...

yerp...i forgot..we also visited this mak cik...with a house at the top of a hill. phew..i was sweating like hell by the time we reached her house. and poor woman, i admire her patience withstanding such a life..no electricity and depending mainly on rain for water...wo..may Allah help her in going through her hardships.....

i guess i realized how lucky i am to have at least a life where i don't need to worry about...neccessities. I mean..it's always there.....without fail. :) i guess i've been..not as grateful as i should be..^_^

~no more~

" When you love someone,

and they break your heart

Don’t give up on love,

have faith, restart

Just hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on

When it falls apart, and you’re feeling lost

all your hope is gone,

don’t forget to

Hold on Hold on "

a kingdom called bore-DOM

im soo bored rite now. currently, safe n sound at home.with nothing-ness to do. so i ended up browsing through d Internet randomly. i reckon that lately iv been doin lots of 'random stuff' that are insignificant. somehw, its an alternative way to waste my so-precious-time rather than s.t.u.d-y-ing. sadly, there's one more week left before the semester comes to an end.time flies soo fast without me evn realising it. come to think of it, i guess we all win d bet, rite qyna n arine? does the "bet" ring a bell, huh guys? the first bet we evr made in college, precisely on 22nd jan 08. i don't think it will happen considering the amount of time we have now. thus, we shall host a victory party, i guess. haha. *wink*

i don't know hw, but this song suddenly keep playing in my head. related to my life, i most certainly disagree. or is it? -clueless-

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all

Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have

Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger

Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you what I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I willFor you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter from all of the clutter in my head

Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes like a water bed

Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times,

no more camouflage I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

p/s : i bet christina n varsh hd a wonderful time during spanish club dinner. and not to forget, arine with her charity visit thingy. btw, arine enjoy your outing to tg malim tmrw k dear. one last thing, thx abang man, for the book!

-love, belle-

Boston~

there are times when a person cares. there are times that she intend to hurt you the way you do. there are times she feels that you are intimidating her. there are times she can never forgive you. no matter how hard u tried. there are times that she said trust is just broken when the last thing you have that reminds you of her has the word on it. n the most surprising fact is that when you yourself are not surprised. you can only look back and say that you can't change the past. and eventually there are times a person is unpredictable to even as near to herself. and she can't change that. and the fact that her unspoken message went through. she's better off without me. I get the point. and when you just see how many people she has in her life now, you just can't help being happy of her progress in all aspects in life..and the person she has become. but it hurts that you know deep inside, you can't be part of that life anymore. but then like she says, life goes on and what I say is the memories stay like dreams. it seemed real..but it's just for some moments. and then it's gone. i think the song Boston really understands my feelings right now. :)

----------------------------------------THE END----------------------------------------------

I'm not going back this week. When Qyn and Belle and Shen and Christina are going back.
WAA:( but this week had been tiring. and the fact that i almost lost my senses..twice..n got in bed for the whole day..for two days.
but bapak's message cheered me up. He's coming on Sunday to bring me to Tanjung Malim! Isn't that great? hehe...i know..i know..i feel loved. :) hehe...
but anyway semester's ending next week. n qyn's leaving...:( I'd miss u Qyn...yeah, yeah and you will say "don't start.." :) okay, okay.. and i appreciate the fact that u took care of me when i was sick..well, u n shen arguing at the end of my bed, whether i should eat rice or maggi...gave me the remedy i need. Laughter. No wonder I recovered so fast do I? ^_^
and belle...i know u'd be tagging all weekend. you're turning me into a pretty acceptable bitch:p Haha...
enjoy your weekend qyn.belle.shen.christina. :)

i wish i was a fake plastic tree

swimming gala.only a couple of ''loyal'' swimmers visibly appeared during this year's swimming gala.apparently i entered all events and it was fun.minus the part that i didnt perform during my fifty meters freestyle at the end of the day.darn it.i thought i'd die of apoplexy but i didnt fortunately.gee some semangat rumah i have but it was worth every single effort.ive nvr seen ppl so spiritd that they'd do anythg for their own house.and fun is always evaluated with sheer exactness and this time my goo goo friends are the exact butter of my cake and the tongkat to my payung. and on top of that since belle was effortlessly cheering for us, she carried me gagahly across the field.wee bit of fun there belle (you should let me horse-ride you again) thanks hun.i love bergala so lets bergala some more people (:

oh and one more thing.thanks to the point fives who deliberately planned the ''surprise'' party for the four of us.i love the cupcakes.i love the people.i love everything.it was a magical-fattening night.please dont let me go out from here.

When you really love someone, you'd want to be with them at any cost ^_^

Port Dickson. All I can think of is the polluted waters there. Fullstop. Not so fast! Hahah..First surprise-you're gonna spend your night in a wagon ^_^...2nd surprise-there's an attic there... 3rd surprise-Tokwan's in the pool already...4th surprise, we have our own booked BBQ dinner together a.k.a all the food is ours, and the open air space too...5th surprise (not that surprising)-I was expected to go on eating for 2 and a half hours straight. 6th?..Nabil and Aqil starts singing.. 7th..the boys did some sexy girlish dance, (note: with parental supervision) making us burst into fits of laughter...8th-we all went onstage and danced the chicken dance...9th surprise..naim starts asking for 20x2 to everybody(no one understands) figured out it meant two twenty cents to play some game..10th surprise-slept late..11th: woke up with a loud call from Pak Lang, "Lets play futsal!" 12th...there's a horse in th resort! (amazingly) until someone says, " There's loads more there and u can even ride 'em" 13th Someone tells me, "don't go on the horse, it won't have the strength to support you(why am I not that surprised?) 14th-Go-cart! Here we come..15th I abandon the rm20 go-cart for a rm5 canoe 16th I can actually paddle a canoe! :) 17th I walk back with everyone else..WET 18th we finished clearing up everything in only half an hour-u'd be amazed if u see the mess we made. 19th- Luqman came into the room giving me and hanis free go-cart coupon 20th-the 1990s girls me-dek yah-hanis...went on a go-cart race 21st: I actually drive something smoothly without bumping or destroying the go-cart. 22nd..me in the lead? wow! 23rd..the whole family's cheering their heads out..wow...24th i actually went faster and faster... 25th..WHAM! Hanis hit me with her go-cart...wo..it feels good 26th I hit her back and laughed so loud 27th I was going so fast, i forgot which side is the brake, turned out i pressed the other one so strongly, I went CRASH..straight into a pile of tyres... 28th when everyone asked "Did you damage your back?" I was asking "Did I damage the go-cart?" 29th No damages reported. 30th My back aches until now :) But man, it was GOOD! No wonder Nathan hit the wall when Hailey left him in OTH 31st: Everyone raced and we got the mercy of free laps from one of the resort officials 32nd: Pak Teh whispered to the girls, go and take pictures with that kind guy..he'd be very happy..33rd..we went what the--? 34th kind-merciful guy missing in action 35th acap hugged me and said "bye sayang" hahah...cute lil' boy..you'd be a charming guy one day 36th my purse got invaded and i had to pay for a couple of ice blended due to the discover of the abundance of money in it 37th i'm gonna miss these moments ^_^

yours truly bebeh, arine

(publish post button pushed by : belle and qyn)

sorry arine, nak post jugak sebab the world should

tau how family-ish uu are (: sanggup u escape class

maths for that! well worth while la jugak. cis while

we are stuck here like a bunch of lunatics tgok movie

cinta evry day. man. well at least belle said ''qyn i will

wait for the one''. yes uu should and that goes fr u too

arine (:

love,qyn

i see, having loads of fun. no wonder you wanted to go so badly. if i'm in your shoes, i'l do the same. lets just say.. i'm giving you an out this time. haha. as qyn said earlier. yup, we spent our entire freaking weekends watching movies, to be specific, love movies. hey qyn, i'm proud of what i said and yes arine, i will wait. no more whaimy-qriqie hunting. :) this time its for real, thx to all the movies involved; ie notebook, a walk to remember, if only..tonnes more.

-love, belle-

violet hills are not so violet on saturdays

well what do we have here.akmal and zack.ehem.

trashing the wet-field after breakfst ah guys? haha.

grabbd some pics of belle in action.

well atleast some part of her lah.

haha. sorry belle ''i see art differently''

i am a brilliant photographer kan? :)

kamilah fluorescent adolescent itu

i send him emails when i need help.
''hello abg ku (:
sorry to bother you but i need to type out words because my life is in a mess right now.as you already know i got mara and the only college they allow me to go is mara banting or mara seremban. i know you are not satiated with their decision so papa and i hd manage to make an appeal letter considering how buruk and usang the condition of the institution. but i can not exactly tell you where i am heading next because they will answer us next week after that. so i am still waiting here in kyuem (wondering that i will leave this wonderful college in two weeks time) and hoping that they allow me to take medic at a levels. at least. i dont know but somehow i feel so bad if i reject the scholarship.you know well that i cant be a good scientist who sits there (befriending mute companions like mr measuring cylinder and ms test tube.and i want a job that connects me with the people for crying out loud! where the hell do you think i should put this bloody large mouth of mine! so i need your advice and you damn well give me some because i am aching my fingers out while typing this long and pathetic e-mail to you. tell me when you are coming back. mama sudah bising you tak contact die. she's out abroad you know.
love.
adik ''

and he will reply only if its the ''important'' kind of help.

''i'm heading home on the 30th. i'm going on a road trip with mubeen mukhtar (kina's friend qay's brother), and beyh and neena sufiyan. now, whose idea of telling mama i'm going steady with beyh?why dont i jump of a cliff while i'm at it.anyways, for kina if it was me i'll stay doing a-levels. the thing about banting and seremban is that; the not up to par teaching capabilities and delapidated facilities made my success a lot sweeter. It's like after climbing an impossible mountain of odds with a string of thread and just a plastic bag for oxygen supply. Now if you get to do medic, Mara will probably send you to Banting or Seremban anyway.Look, I know Medic is your passion but you really have to make lemonade out of lemons Kina. Truth is, i only opted for Petroleum Engineering because its the only field where a lot of people have not much interest in And the least competition for employment.At least make something out of it Kina. Try to get what you can and just deal with it''

and i usually reply to him anyways.

''what you are actually proposing is : go take the mara offer and just shut up. yes i get you. lets just wait and see. if mara still ignores my appeal letter then i am bound to live in mara college. banting or seremban i dont care. its just a two years course and how bad can that be. you made it tru those odds with that thread of yours :) hey i didnt tell mama that you are stable with her (which i normally doubt it to be really exact) and whoever did it, its just not me.i didnt do it for heaven's sake. no time lah to be loitering around your oh-so-splendid love life. pathetic. i will wait for mara. and i will listen to you. thanks abg.maybe there's much more than that to life.have a good road trip.take good care.sumpah i jealous nak mati. aaargh. wait mubeen's brother?he's a friend of mine?since when?
love
adik''

and thats about it. anyhow

we went for bowling during tutorial.

mainly to celebrate ah hui

who's leaving us next wed.

''arine : where is it bende bowling ni weh?

shen : dekat bukit beruntung lah arine.

arine : bukit beruntung? tak penah dengr ponn.

shen : heh bukit beruntung lah ala dekat dekat sini lah

arine : omg! look there's people around!..ade orang!

shen : kete pon ade..wah! ade orang dalam van!

arine : civilisation! yes atlast jauh daripada hutan beringin..''

aku sangat sedih melihat kejahilan rakan-rakanku ini.

this is ah hui.well his feet lah.

our batch is planning a farewell party

and they made us write absurdly

small cards for him.

i dno what to write actually.

i came up with some words eventually

- half an hour later (:

''dear ah hui,

thanks for everything.

what is garnet without you dude!

best of luck in france. bonne chance!

friend cum task-mate,

qyna''

random tee

something caught our eyes

red bolds on black saying

kolet

kolek

kolec?

notice anything?

well maybe not.

love,

us