lembah beringin:day one

sorry qyn. i should be writing ds on saturday. but since d damn internet connection ws nt working. hd to postpone ds update. i'm in d itlab rite nw.one of d reason is u n d other one, u know who. haha. ok, arine hs talked bout ladies nite mayb i'l go on wit d splendid college bday*weee*

on sat, thers only me n shen left. they all went back home apparently. d preparation startd in d evening itself. table deco.including full rehearsal. every house ws working hard, so is ur housec^^.don't worry..i know u wntd to help them.*wink* d great hall lookd spectacular dt nite. no doubt. startd of wit a fw words from d president. *giggles* d food ws okay. but i must say, d performances saved d day. awesome man. had soo much fun. hard to describe in words, seriously...i wish u were there. i bet we'l camwhore like hell. took a few pics tho.

hope u'l enjoy it. miss u a lot!

ps: hv something fr u. check out d drafts k.

-love, belle-

ATL : day one

dear.

we had a press conference and i wonder if it came out today.imagine sitting in a plane for a day and you will definitely know how crazy it feels like.well here is all good and we arrived safely at approximately six am on saturday which means i encountered two sats at a time! how amazing is that.the temperature here is about nine and it alters drastically when there's several tornado occurrence.the transits were in taipei taiwan and los angeles.well hope all of you had a blast time during ladies night and college birthday.i am eating the pathetic laksa maggie again until we manage to find some halal delicacies.i feel a little bit kurus now.i heard someone fell? anyhow i will be checking out the big city tomorrow.take good care.and hey i can finally meet david archuleta in person! (varsh i know you wna kill me)i am missing all of you.

from taiwan with love

from los angeles with love

''ma i reached us.adik muntah as

the flight was kinda rough.

ray tak angkat phone.im frustrated.bye ma''

''kesian anak mama.take care and enjoy your day''

Ladies Night :)

The night meant for girls:) one word-fun* especially when you're in the food committee. :D

Simply CRAPS..**

I couldn't sleep. Weird. I feel so tired already. :) Never mind I'd figured I'd write some craps down, so don't bother to read if you don't really welcome craps. ^_^
"...biarlah ku bertanya...para bintang2 tentang erti kita..dalam mimpi yg sempurna..." that song echoes in my room. It's been like more than a month already since that person was gone from my life..sad? Hahah..I don't know. I wonder if I am..too. I did a lot of things, just to forget everything. I succeeded well, (I think) I don't really hear the songs he used to send to me while trying to sleep anymore. I could get through one day realizing how he never came into my mind for even one second.
Yeah. Thanks to a substitute. And the heaps of commitments to attend to. And Belle. And Qyn. And Shen. And Mummy V. And Christina. I guess, whatever it is, life will never pause to wait for you. It just goes on and on. And when someone leaves, you see a lot of other people coming in. If you open your eyes wider. And yeah, if you open your mouth and talk too. :)
I never thought I'd say this. But..there's more to life than to love and being loved in return. :) And maybe, I'd never get myself so much into that stuff until..I don't know.
Today, I tried opening the Quran randomly, something I do when I want an answer, or a sign. And Allah gave me a sign. The first thing my eyes settled on was a verse, ( I don't really remember exactly how the verse goes) But it says something about how Allah created His creations in pairs, so that one would feel calmness and love towards his or her pair. And Allah created love between the two for a reason, and it's a sign for those who really think. And I'd figure out that somehow, if the love is really true, it won't go anywhere. It will happen. It wouldn't be true, if it happens a little too many times would it? (Right, bear with me)
But anyway, my parents are coming back tomorrow. I know I'd be scolded, cause my phone bill kind of shoot up exceeding what Bapak can stand, and well, there are a few things occuring during their absence that I know my parents would erupt like the volcano that causes tsunami of anger. Hahah..weird..we have this agreement that we'll all be in this together. (That's unfair, I just came back) heheh...now I regret coming home this week. Fine, fine...it's Mum's Day tomorrow anyway. Mama won't get angry..(I hope). I doubt it. But whatever it is, I still love them, although I have a big chance of getting the long "lecture".
Belle and Shen, enjoy the college birthday. ^_^ And Qyn, enjoy your time in USA...:)
Now, I feel like sleeping.

-no caption-

i am bored.

and i am home.

and i am loving archuleta.

and i am missing all of you.

and i got the scholarship.

and i am confused.

and i care.

and i dont.

and.

and.

and.

fcuk.

-qyn

she says:

"Four,

She broadcasts

different dreams,

But all she wants

Is just one thing.."

She wrote about me. Ouch :p

i quote 'pink is my favourite colour'

no matter how many black garments you don to class you will never feel dark inside if you are just as innocent as a cucumber.why cucumber? doesnt matter.anyhow i must say that first monday classes after long weekends are the worst.you will definitely find some of your classmates rocking themselves to sleep while the energetic teacher (no seriously) is teaching in front.lets skip the fact that i am bloody sleepy too.btw for the very first time i proudly present you my new literature teacher ''you are big and i dont have to tell you what is wrong or right -fastforward- all i am saying is my principle is simple.i dont care whethr you wna do my homework and on top of that i dont care if you show up late in my class'' all smiles.angguk angguk in perfect agreement.deep inside i know they are doing the same thg (grinning and thinking of more free blocks equivalent to more sleeping time) while waiting outside the office to meet zaidi i stumbld upon a warden and she spotted me right away hence brought me to the side to hav a chat declaring the world (oh-so-loud-voice) that she saw me on tv last weekend 'urgh mane ade cikgu silap orang kot hehehe' she objctd 'tidakkkk betol saye nampak kamu.kamu yang blablablablabla tu kan?' and so i said 'urmm takkkkk lah mane de mane de hehehe' she frustatedly screamed 'ish kamu ni betol lahh jgn nak malu malu saya tau' whatever.indeed it was me.last year.

-qyn

unhappy mothers day

tatkala aku berduka engkau sentiasa di sisi tetapi bukan hari ini.

i am asking for sheer forgiveness that is all.why is it so hard to wish her a happy-merry mothers day anyway? usually the three of us would buy her presents wrapped with delicate pink cover with vanilla peach candle alongside.not this year.this year is so dull and i am all alone in the house so i assume that she doesnt really care about today.whats the big deal about celebrating this so-called mothers day? as if you'll get arrested if you dont celebrate it.and i wonder stupidly why ive been (joyfully) celebrating it anyways back then.i choose not to wish her.not for now that is considering the fact that there will be another possible long feud.so recalled just now when you and me were sitting in the car for thirty minutes without talking to each other.ironically fly fm crews repeated cascadingly 'give your mother a hug and say that you love her during this mothers day' i get the message now stop emphasising it already.damn stupid radio.i have nothing more to say and i rather dig myself under the thick covers of slumber than to think about this personal matter.better yet to cry myself dry.no thats an utter humiliation.i rather sleep.before that mom, i love you and happy mothers day and this is the closest thing i can do to reach you for now.sorry too.

-qyn

the truth is...*cut*

qyn n arine r alwys updating their post.
unlike me :(

well, thers an excuse for dt..or maybe, i just don't hv a clue on what to write. haha . major 'blonde' moment (as if i'm evn blonde, which is not;p) today, luckily, qyn gave me a topic to start on. yeay!

saturday noon. after having massive problem on finding transportation n nt to forget severe fighting scenes, finally, qyn n i managed to hang out together wit qillermaz at bukit tinggi, klang. hooray! first up, cinema. d last movie i watch, rule#1 still embeded in my mind n i bet so does qyn's. haha. we were selecting a movie to watch, when i cme up wit a suggestion "y don't we go wit 'slit mouthed woman'?" another horror-mandarin-movie. a sure no! qyn's excuse amused me, " both horror movie i'v watched really freak me out. i hd to ask my maid to sleep wit me cz i'm soo terified".nice one. we end up watching ironman from d third row seats, which was a neck-aching experience i must say. bt it ws fun, watching a movie wit hot-actors-cum-no-kissing scene while eating doughnuts-popcorn-manggo juice ( my lunch actually ). i don't agree wit u, qyn. tony spark's last sentence ws catchy enough for me....."the truth is, i am ironman"...simple but yet cn arouse so much attention rather than -the-truth-is-i'm-gay;p don't u think its a bit gay-yish.no offence. really enjoyd d movie. went for a-barely-an-hour shopping. mission accomplished. bought a present for mother's day. proud. 4.45pm, we were out of bukit tinggi, returning to our own home. less tiring than midval's hangout though.

-love, belle-

my saturday at the hills

'' the truth is

i am iron man''

last words by tony spark.

though the small feud almost ruin my whole entire day,i am glad we went out to catch iron man instead just to make me feel better.thanks bir and belle.i had fun.but i prefer the ending 'the truth is i am gay' better.best of luck to bir who is stepping into taylors next week and kudos to you too.

-qyn

Tiring to surprising to tiring...

"Bila engkau memandang segalanya dari Tuhan-mu,
yang menciptakan segalanya,
yang menimpakan ujian,
yang membuat keinginan terhalang dan menyusahkan hidupmu,
pasti akan damailah hatimu kerana masakan
Allah sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia.
Bukan Allah tidak tahu derita hidupmu,
retaknya hatimu,
tapi mungkin itulah yang Dia mahu
kerana Dia tahu hati-hati sebeginilah
yang selalunya lebih lunak dan mudah untuk dekat dan akrab dengan-Nya."

Putrajaya-Maghrib

I saw these words sometime around last year, few weeks before spm. It was written by a senior for a friend dear to me. Last night, again I saw the truth in these words. :) Even after I left school, always there must be something that will pull me near to it, whether it's a person who is in need of someone to listen, or the fact that you have the love for the grounds you've basically grown up on, that witnessed so many memories (no matter how much you try to deny it). My idea of having a relaxing weekend kinda didn't work out. Instead I think it's rather surprising. But the nice thing is I spent most of the time sightseeing, going out with Abang in the morning and returning home at night. And the thing about going out with Abang, whenever it's time to pray, he'd stop at the nearest mosque. I think in two days, we went to four different mosques. There was this one mosque we stopped during Asar, and it was full of school children, at least at the female side. And it was weird, feeling so adult. :) when around you are basically, kids. Haha..but they're cute. And there's this mosque with a lift to the ablution room and is so big, I almost lost my way. There was this other mosque where I saw this man on a wheelchair, he couldn't walk, but he came for Zuhur and Asar, earlier than us. We were both on wheels, just that his, was without an engine :) but he would always reach there early. And he'd wait after finishing the prayers, and shook hands with the Muslims who came to pray too. But summing up everything with a movie really rhymes it with fun. (But I'm still tired)...not mentioning that suddenly, there will be this open house for the BIG family tomorrow....:) Hmm..I wonder where Bapak gets all the stamina to go through this hectic life^_^ When I'm back at kyuem tomorrow, I bet that the first thing I'd find is the bed and really, really SLEEP.

dissection is better than diseksi

warning.some material may be inappropriate for children and also to those with severe heart attacks. .

diseksi is a known word used by university students to explain operation replacing the common word pembedahan or dissection.an early bird dissects more rats than usual.i came early to university malaya faculty of medicine to find more rats (specifically sprague dawleys) to be dissected.what a great act of nobility to start a probable wonderful day.just another activity to ensure an exact result fr the experiment.we did that last year so why are we dissecting more cute humble innocent rats? i stood quite far as the smell of fresh blood lingers ferociously saturated around my nostrils.i saw her dissecting them one by one just like she said 'cmon lah qyna its fun! just like chopping chickens' well firstly i never chop chickens.secondly i never evaluate fun as bone-cracking limb-chopping blood-oozing eye-catching freaky dissection kind of fun.no no not that kind of fun to be exact.but i did it anyways.i did it once and i am doing it again.last year (as i recalled vividly) i tried to cut off its center stomach and the bloody rat toppled over and it was practically crawling (with sinister and gruesome-like kind of gesture) towards me.shit.i know the rat's supposed to be dead.such small twart with big pumping heart machine.after ten minutes trapped in a jar filled with chloroform you certainly expect an animal that is absurdly small to be permanently dead (as if a rat can die temporarily) i quote one of my comrade who funnily screamed 'banganglah that tikus hidop balik! shit shit shit shit' i wonder if silently the rat was whispering 'why the hell you kill me you stupid ass human' but luckily it didnt.so at least that didnt bother my sleep during the night.and so i performd the dissection.amazingly this time i did it smoothly.wee bit of proudness as i am finally learning how to cut without making screeching screams every now and then.the rat was calmly acknowledging my act of cruelty i mean my act of nobility towards him tho its cute little face managed to put a morsel of guilt while i am busy handling the procedure.i guess my vast personal experience obtained from watching GA is worthwhile after all.an afternoon made perfect with pictures taken ala ala overseas with my good friend fara.dont worry dear.you and me? we'll definitely go far to take real abroad grassy-like pictures.alright hun?

in memories -final meeting at university malaya faculty of medicine kuala lumpur and final cutting sessions.finally.i can sleep in peace.

-qyn

superserious

today is oga day.old girls association.apparently i cant make it.such a pleasant feeling tho when you have your juniors texting you msgs whether you can make it to school for the big event.sorry my dear i cant because my mom is not around.belle dropped me at my gate yesterday to find that nobody's home.my parents are away to port dickson for a holiday and i tot they are away for the weekends too.turns out they'll be coming back soon.damn.was about to curi curi keluar this saturday.so now its me and my noodle and my tv and my reliable laptop all alone.my parents out.my brothers gone.i have so much to do in so little time tho e.g homework and xm studying and massive prep for the conference.nah i think i'll go for more sleeping and juno and i am sam and oth and GA and finishing episodes of GG.im ordering pizza soon.what more can i ask for on a holiday like this? to my dear friend cum classmate juge.do stay strong and we are always here for you.on behalf of my family and my dads mcoba comm, i would like to express my utmost condolence to you and your family.

lets all recite Al-fatihah for the late father

of juge-noor azrina sidek who has just passed away of cancer.

Al-fatihah.

-qyn

Longer weekend then normal..FINALLY :p

Bapak's coming to fetch me late. Like always.. it's a busy world to live in. Thoughts of going home this weekend in a way excites me. Because I don't need to do much of the work around the house, not as much as I have to do if Bibik isn't home. She's coming back today. :) Finally...
But in a way, I think, the absence of a person taking care of the house, and us, taking care of it ourselves can be really fun. Really binds us together, to tolerate.. :D Yeah, it's a rare occassion.
Anyway, I have high expectations of this weekend..to be relaxing, especially after, having a long, tiring week and three days, not forgetting the three past weekends that is full of ironing, and washing and fast food. :p
Things are suddenly getting crazy. I miss Mr Cranwell's class, and yeah, Ms Christine leaving too, so who is ever going to teach us History? Events come and pass, like pages turned in a book, fast and not even letting me to stop and think. Or to hesitate. The bright side, it's good, the dark side, I'm abandoning some matters I shouldn't.
Sometimes we need a break, but in some cases, you just to go on and on and on, until those stuff bothering just cannot seem to catch up. Today, I saw a character that interests me. Probably the person's concentration in doing something made me stare. Like nothing could be a distraction at all. But that person is often seen alone, but at the same time, is near to the people around that person. I don't know how to explain it. But anyway, screw it, just caught my eye for a mere few minutes, fine..one hour.
I think I'm settling down for some sleep. Today is truly a tiring day..again. :)

kami ghetto ghetto

kami perenang frequent kyuem.frankly nothing much this week.just some ghetto moments with some crazy hooligans every now and then.and my rosetta stones-wrecking life is getting better and better.and so i hope.indeed this is a shocking-jaw opener-tongue rolling week with unbearable news and new lit teacher.i reckon that guys can easily inveigle themselvs into our affection making us easily falling in love in an extremely dishonest way.is that actually normal? love is damn right complicated.and i am avoiding it.shoooooooh!

-qyn

no literature

arinah and qyna were told

"there will be no literature class

for two weeks"

-qyn

evening with sapphire

presenting aak in pink dress

blast from the past.belle kept saying that she's bloody worried 'qyn qyn you have to help me that night' well face painting wasnt that hard.i can totally say you did a great job painting the kids' faces.tho majority of your customers are underaged infants i mean kids i trully think you and christina did a fantastic job.cherios!with your unbelievable sign board saying 'face pain' without the 'ing' on it.yeah face pain sounds better.no really.it was fun.tho i was quite confused with the given theme at first.of retro dances and hairsprays and bee hive hairstyles.who say we cant be ala ala kuno at times?

and we had nothing better to do

and more wiggies

-qyn

since qyn insisted me to write something on evening wit sapphire, let me intrude in this post rather than writing a new one *wink*. i cn see dt qyn hs put up lot of pics we took during d whole event. hmm, as she hs mentiond, i ws incharge of face painting wit my beloved roomate, christina. i totally freakd out bout d painting basically. tell u what, i'm nt dt good in arts. haha. d evening went well. most of them who turnd p at our booth were kids. pheewh. i managed to paint a few n to my own surprise, it wsn't dt bad. proud .d interhouse competition roxx! first up ws hairspray comp.cool.next, retro dance. speechless...haha..fun n entertaining i guess. qyn ws practically enjoying d moment while arine ws busy standing still beside mcsub.hehe. here's a pic of d dncing part which is d only one we could gt for d whole competition.

diamond representatives

all n all, i would say dt d evening ws a blast n indeed a joyful event, eventhough less camwhoring than usual. hope u guys enjyed it too. dts it. enough of rambling.

-love, belle-